my mind is always racing
from here to there

darting from thought to thought
compulsively

the four corners of my mind
are my worst enemy

i am confined
a prisoner to my thoughts
and my emotions

i press my palms
against the walls
and i push and push
with more force each day
trying to fight for air

but it seems
with more force
the walls begin to crumble
and cave in

until one day
they collapse
and i’m free

i am glowing
shining
warm and happy
the happiest

a facade
a facade

my skin crawls
my bones ache
my mind numb
with too many thoughts

my flesh has begun to rot

a foul smell
that only my nose
can detect

making myself dizzy

i am alive
i am the happiest

every last bit of me
into a facade

making darkness
into light

I'm an alchemist

when he says dance
i dance

when he says jump
i jump
i leap
i fall
i hurt

i follow
everything
all for him

las nubes me saludan
y la lluvia me besa

it feels like it was yesterday
but a yesterday a long time ago
away, sealed up in a dream
i can only faintly remember parts of it
while the rest is a blur

i can’t escape this strange dream
floating by
not truly feeling anything,
just existing

my heart hurts
a hurt that aches endlessly, eating away

it’s the bell jar
the same sour air i breathe

always had an inkling
an inkling to end the thoughts
end the aching