bluebells and lilac
you walking away from me
should I follow you

giddiness
why
not

why are you
going part-time
she asks
not being able
to understand
my decision

I smile at her
as I explain
that I want
to have time
to do work
I believe in

majestic mountains
red boat floating on the lake
happiness for me

she takes
a deep breath
straightens
her body
and stands tall
I can do it
she smiles
and makes
the first step
to begin her
new journey

pollution
noise
traffic
cranes
frantic
chaotic
*****
vibrant
humm­ing and buzzing
but turn a corner
and you are greeted by
serene squares
with small parks
and stone benches
inviting you
to sit down and relax
and connect with those
who have been here
centuries ago

yesterday
pain

today
pain

tomorrow
the same

happy
sad
yo-yo

sisters
bond
forever

I do not
understand
why you smile
when
everything
seems to go wrong
I say

I know
that
things
will change
she answers
and smiles

breathe in
breathe out
carry on

I want to live
in a real castle
I want to drive
a big and fast car
I want to eat
chocolate all day
I want a prince
to kiss me
and make me his princess
the little girl seighs
closes her eyes
and falls asleep

daffodils
spring
awakening

why did it take me
so long
to realize that
for me
we are us
but for you
we are you and I

black
white
harmony

angry storm outside
warmth and comfort in the house
waiting for the change

morning
sunshine
hope

how are you
he asks
looking at her
with concern

I am struggling
she answers
trying to find
the right path

she
he
trust

tea
smiles
warmth

red sun, misty sky,
smell of earth and evergreen,
vast uncertainty

bright moon on black sky
cold winter night and white snow
longing for your love

night
sleep
healing

white and glistening snow
trees and paths seem not the same
stillness touches me

this is  my gift for you
she said and gave him
a white sheet of paper

he looked at the paper
and was surprised
as there was nothing
written on it

it is empty
she explained
so that you can fill it
with the memories
of the happy times
we shall spend together

she looked
at him
undecided
and scared

jump
he said
with a smile
if you decide
to follow
your dreams
everything
will fall into place

she looked
at him again
saw his
deep love
for her
and jumped

white
lie
why

new year
new challenges
new ideas
new solutions
new hopes
new struggles
new love
new life
new me

she looks
at the list
that she has just written
and decides
that she needs
nothing new

I follow you
to the end
of the world
she said

but I am
not going there
he responded
and walked away

yesterday
seems so close
tomorrow
is so near
today
does not make sense

waiting for the boat
stormy waters and grey sky
anxious is her mind

festive busyness
smell of cinnamon and warmth
happiness returns

snow
tea
warmth

sun
warmth
optimism

cold and icy field
wintry roads and snowy hills
bleak and sorrow mind

forest
calmness
inspiration

fixing her gaze
on the flame
of the candle
she begins to
dream

it is always
the same dream

she is the heroine
who every time
miraculously
ends up with
mr right

she blows
the candle out

she puts on
a beautiful dress
brushes her hair
and leaves
the house

she has decided
to stop dreaming

golden moon and stars
cats are out on nightly walks
dreams of warmth and love

morning
awakening
hope

she thinks
she is astonished
she wonders
how could she
have forgotten
that happiness
you do not find
but create

she smiles
she stands up
tall
strong
fearless
determined
and begins
to create

dark night
she cannot
sleep
her thoughts
are like
a spider’s net
trapping
her soul
no escape
from the
never ending
question
she
cannot
answer:
when will
it be my turn
to find joy
in what
I do?

thoughtful
playful
love

she looks at me
and smiles
as she can see
that I struggle
to find an ending
to my story

enjoy the process
she quietly says
knowing that
this will not
be easy

fog and weeping sky
dancing red and yellow leaves
fleeting happiness

rain
fog
november

yellow and red leaves
misty mornings greeting me
quiet is my mind

relax
dream
recover

she sits
on the chair
exhausted
and wonders
if one day
she will have
the strength
and courage
to walk away
and leave him
behind

waiting
listening
hoping