Today our hearts won first place
We first confronted our deepest fears
Cried our deepest tears
Emotionally undressed each other
As we spiritually healed each other
We are all we need, the world will have to wait
In this moment love has allowed us to meet
Two strangers freezing time
As we search for keys in each other’s souls

thou art my lover,
for thou holdest my heart..
my heart rings to your voice and beats to thou touch..
gazing my eyes on you gives me an emotional rush, my body it excites, my soul it satisfies
for tonight when I lay my head I shou lay it on your soft chest, my love in you I invest

I just dropped the “O” in good and it became God
Because God is Good
Treasure his life
to him nothing is impossible
Even impossible knows that all things are possible, through him, hope and faith are available
Christian sinners kneel to beg for appeals
Second, third, thirty third chances  
Trying to make advances
Their Criptonoight is lust, fear, fidelity, lying, cheating and stealing
Just name a few, not to mention all the deadly sins
Chasing dreams which are inspired by demons
Blinding them while stealing their visions
His mercy is forever, so they sin
thinking salvation is insurance
But for every road they has to be a toll paid
Trials and tribulations
are tests which many failed  
But By grace we have all been saved
Since grace is Gods mercy

Shouldn’t we all open our eyes and see
That without the God we will never be good?

For me it never had a starting point or an ending point

I just knew it had to be given
You were the chosen

I showed it by never forgetting where we were going

Goals set, in midnight conversations, early morning calls, late night walks

Never asked you to be loyal
Always talked about keeping it real
It’s like the scene never ended and you kept the reel
Never needed lights to show the actions
No amount of cameras could capture the excellence of your presence
You never left even when you were given the evidence

To you my loyalty has no expiration
Your heart is it’s intended destination

Her heart was starving for love
so she feasted on his lies
She couldn’t realize
That his eyes
Were built to tell lies
With her heart full
She became her lovers fool
He played her like a fiddle
While she tried to understand him like an unsolvable riddle
Complicated, and uninvested he was
She fought to keep him while being devastated
He demoralized her worth until she got infected with a universal disease called insecurity
Hating to love him,
while struggling to leave him
loving him openly, while secretly dying slowly

Procrastination
is a destination
in which
potential
goes to die

Those who laugh at the caterpillar
Will one day envy the butterfly

It’s not the beginning that defines us
It’s the ending that makes us

Fly butterfly, fly
Go own acres in the blue sky

Stuck in Marvins Room
Wondering who is loving you the way I used to
Wished I knew the pain of losing you
While I still had you
Regret hits deeper than Cupid’s arrows
Now I sit back and drink my own sorrow
Darkness looms on my head “No halo“
Wake up in the morning with no hello’s
Missing your voice like an over thrown pass
I wish I could of been the last to last
Took you for granted thinking your love was always gon be granted
Missing pieces of me
cause I left them inside of you
This broken heart
can’t even be fixed with a million pounds of glue
I tried therapy, but no words
can take back what I did to you
Locked in Marvins room and only time can unlock me

You promised to never leave but you did
You promised to never stop loving me
but you did, now I sit here alone and lonely
You promised to always be by my side
But you left without even a goodbye
Was I that horrible of a lover
that you had to go find another
I wonder if he knows about me
and how much of a disaster I was
For loving you too much
needing you too much
And trying to look after your lonely heart
Cherishing you like an art piece with value

I loved you
but now I wonder if you loved you
In your lies I found your value
I found a missing soul
A broken heart, and an insecure being
I’m not here to judge you
But here to tell you
That one day love will find you and judge you

Sometimes what I have to write is more important than what I feel
And sometimes how I feel is more important than what I can write

So when those two meet
Poetry is birthed from my soul
Bleeding on paper are my emotions
Which I hope can take control
I have stood for all and I have fallen for all
Stuck in a dream with a heart full of feelings
If someone can make me feel what’s deep in
I promise to try to love again, if not I hope you can catch me while I am falling for these feelings

Every time I touch you I am touching a miracle
You are beautiful
Face of an angel and smile of a goddess
My heart you possess
Loving you is simply priceless

We fell in love with shooting stars
Wishing that our love would go far
We had stomachs filled with butterflies
While we believed in beautiful lies
We looked up at the skies,
wondering what Love looked like before we looked into each other’s eyes

Forever seemed too long to pray for
So we prayed for tomorrow and hoped to live for an eternity, while loving each other deep into our dark fantasy

Nights like these
Make his mind freeze
Thinking about her warmth
Thoughts running deep
As they introduce depression
He tries to press on with no passion
She loved him as he drunk her poison
Draining his passion while changing his definition of a thing called love

He tried to find it in others
But forgot that he left his ex lover under cover
Broken hearts take years to recover
Hoping to still be her lover
praying that it’s not over,
wishing she would of stayed longer

An addict to pain she let him control her emotions
Tried to leave
but found herself coming back
to an empty home
An empty throne
An empty chest.....

So She took his heart,
and left a suicide note
Which wrote
Your love was cut throat
So I took what kept you alive
Now let’s see how you will survive
It was better when I was by your side
But you decide hurting me was best way of keeping me alive,
I loved you but died inside

My silence will be what heals you with time
Don’t miss me when I am not around
Need me while I am still alive
I loved you physically and mentally
but you broke me emotionally
Took trust from me
now I seek it underneath empty liquor bottles, sleep well as you dream of naked models
who won’t comfort your sorrows

If love comes my way again
I will remember you
And hope I never love another killer like you
Here I stand free and alone,
so watch me as I rebuild my throne
Full of love and compassion

Love is the sound of your voice
Without it I would go deaf

Black is power
Power is black
400 years of pain and torture
Bodies Confined in ghettos
Government planted drugs
Drug stores on every ghetto corner
owned by white owners
Guns and violence labeled communities
Living in fixed income homes
Kings and Queens with no thrown
Facing poverty, while chasing a fantasy
Crime becomes vital as it is part of reality
Malcolm tried to save them, so they had to take him
Martin was also taken by an assassin
Society labels blacks as superior athletes
but fails to applaud our superior mindsets
Education in our bloodlines
Look at what the Egyptians accomplished
Voices of the numb taken to regret-filled coffins
Rosa Parks sat down so we could stand up for civil justice
What is justice?
Freedom or is it just a word for acceptance
These are words for young Kings and Queens
You are more than a statistic
your skin shade doesn't determine your worth  
your mindset controls the narrative
so don't let society control it
For the racist, I pray you learn to resist
The urge to hurt us, label us, or control us
Because our black minds will never be boxed

Until the lion tells his own story
the hunter will always be the hero
No one will ever know
The lions point of view
But if you ever do
Pray you that you are not the hunter

Please re-read this
when you feel different about our love
Yes I still love you
And yes I will always love you
But right now you are falling deeply in love with your comfort zone
I hate to make you choose
but it’s either me or your comfort zone
When you are ready to keep falling
just step out of your comfort zone
And you will see me below
Ready to catch you as you fall

A dream a nightmare
All sound the same
Both can make you go insane
Both force you to endure pain
So give me that pen
Let me write what’s within
If it doesn’t please your eyes
Look from within to truly understand

I stopped wishing for Fridays
And started loving all days
Because anyday could be the day
Anyday alive should be a good day
Because without a day
We face the reality of a bad day

She knew she lost a king
When all she had around her
were slaves acting like kings
Loving her body instead of her soul
Spoiling her with money and material things
instead of dressing her finger with Gold
Force feeding her fantasy
instead of creating a better reality
Her heart in pieces
she left them all to go love herself again
In loving herself she found herself a king
Willing to take her in
Wounded and destroyed
He vowed to make sure she never cried again

I’m not afraid of dying
I’m afraid of not living while I am alive
Because to me that’s worse than death
That’s a slow suicide
As death welcomes me into its cold arms
Comforting me with doubt, while forcing me to reject faith, ignore hope, and embrace fear
Shed a million tears
open old scars and feast on regret  

I’m not afraid of dying
I am afraid of giving up on my future  
Because to me that’s worse than death
That’s emotional torture,
as I watch my heart get eaten by vultures
Serenading my past and giving it meaning like I don’t have a future, it abuses me by feeding me stress, anxiety and depression like my past needs me to impress it
I’m just trying to move past it
It has a hold on me, it’s taking control of me

I’m not afraid of dying
I am afraid of ignoring love while it shoots me with Cupid’s arrow
As I feast on my ego and drown in my sorrow  
Lover after lover I reject like I don’t know
Searching for that idol
while I worship my insecurities
The closer they get the further I ran
Because I can’t let them see the worst of me
I never loved me
how can I let a stranger in
When I am not comfortable within

I’m not afraid of dying
I’m just afraid on living without a purpose
Loving without a purpose
Caring without a purpose
Trying without a purpose

I just want to live a life with a purpose!!!!

If you are going to leave
Leave

If you are going to love
Love

I am asking you
please don’t do both

Because you can not
break and fix a heart at the same time

That’s called emotional abuse
And my heart...
doesn’t have the time for that

She told me the heartbreak
felt like she died twice
Without me she felt like she couldn’t be alive
Now her memories
will be forever hunting me
I tried to bury our past, but she kept coming back in the form of my insecurities

Rain falls from heaven
Bitter cold breeze Numbs souls
Wind chills speak a language only the lonely understand
Raising hopes were meant to fall
To face the following season
The coldest one of them all
A cold so bitter it Whispers painful joy
leaving your body shivering as it aches
making painful noise
while reflecting on past mistakes

Got you all me give
I will give you all of me
Me love
I will always love you
Reciprocal be always should love

(read that backward)

If you have loved you have lost
If you have lost you have loved
Love is an emotional sacrifice made every day
The giving of oneself to gain another
Lover O lover
Please lose yourself to me
So you could be mine forever
For I want to be your joy and fantasy
Your smile and reason to be happy
Lover O Lover don't you see what you have done to me

Dear love  
Pray for this love of ours to grow
When it comes to you
I want nothing more than all of you
I want your love
I want your passion
I want your desire
I want your secrets and confessions
I want your ice and I want your fire
I want your tears and your fears
I want your scars and your perfection

I will love your imperfections
as if they were my own
I will love and cherish them  
I will love your insecurities
because you appointed me
as the head of your hearts security
to protect and honor with loyalty

You gave beauty a name
When you introduced yourself to me

It’s like I was suffocating for your attention
Seeking you in my imagination

And you saw that I needed your therapy
As my eyes met yours I knew I met beauty for the first time, that moment was sublime

I was drunk without drinking
crazy without trippin

In love with the feeling you casted on me
So dear love please don’t keep me waiting

Owls only talk at night
Fearing lights
But falling in love with the moon and the stars
They speak of the past as they feast on old scars

Cold winter breeze
Please don’t make my heart freeze
Numb you leave me
Confused and dazed
Fazed for days
Twisted in your ambiguity
Do you love me or just want to use me
Please don’t rush me
But feel the need to need me
Because I have a heart beat
that beats to your melody

I am just a broken glass full of mistakes
If you drink from me I hope you get no cuts
here comes a heart full of pain
needing your therapy
Your words got the best of me
I am left feeling empty
But full of an emotion I know not how to explain
But feel it from within

He said you will never catch me in my emotions

And then she came around,
now his stuck in his emotions
Deep like the ocean
She explores him

She comforts his insecurity
Protects and loves him with dignity
Shows Love and loyalty
She is his weakness
As he is her strength
They hold each other
as they dream of forever
True genuine lovers
Hidden emotions find comfort under covers
Whispering secrets kept between them
Love so strong and powerful it blinded them

If you are going to write a poem about me
Write it for your own therapy
Write about my flaws and insecurity
Write about my lack of love
and addiction to fantasy
While suppressing my reality
Write about how I’ve been lost romantically
Like seriously hopelessly I am romantic
Especially when these emotions keep abusing me
Write about how I have been chasing who I am supposed to be
But running into who the world has chosen me to be, stuck in a box sealed with no identity
Write about the freedom which I have been chasing
but never having the ability to grasp
as it has simply eluded me

I needed yesterday
Just so I can appreciate today
And if tomorrow comes let it know that I will cherish it until it becomes yesterday
But for now let me live for today
Because yesterday’s dreams
was for me to see a day like today

I’m not good at saying (good)bye

So let me just start by saying (hello)

If tomorrow never comes
I hope to die with your shadow
For today you made me feel wanted and loved
Your heart I will now follow  

Yesterday and everyday before yesterday was a struggle
because for many years I lived without you

Many years of pain and passionless desires

Now that I found you
I’m not good at saying (good)bye

Leaf color changes
Leave me Loving different strangers
Thunder in my soul
Heart filled with desire
Passion burning like a wild fire
unstoppable like the heart of a champion