god.
an only god
that’s has an only follower

the follower gives it everything
jewels, gold
too much,
to relieve them from the cold

moons rise,
suns fall.
the follower comes by noon
bringing company

‘my love, do not worry,’
the worshiper whispered;
‘for i know what god wants’

their partner smiled,
their hands holding gold

jewels,
all to relieve them
from this world

the god arrived
‘my disciple, to continue, you must to something for me,’
higher being, ethereal entity

‘wash your hands with the blood of my enemy‘

lover, dear lover
bathing my hands in your sweet blood
remorseful?

no.
for I know what god wants.

she spins,
spins to the song

her long dress
quietly dances to the rhythm
of the tambourines
glasses batting
and leather drums

she spins,
spins to the song

she looks up, calling them
then now she’ll be one of them
those who suffered
those with consumed lives

‘no, never alone.’
they whisper,
‘for now she has shown, never alone.’

shrunk in a corner
trembling hands
crying eyes
my whole life, shoved

i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved
i am loved

hold,
hold these white petals

while you stain them with blood
blade smells like the metal in your veins
respect for the dead

respect for the dead

mangled body
id ask,
why?

why do YOU look at it
it’ll make you sick

BEHOLD!

BEHOLD THE LIMBLESS BODY!

so easy, so easy to find
white petals soaked in the red river
while petals running through your face

respect for the dead

i had a friend
unmistakable gaze
blurry thoughts
your throat lingering with knots

oh, it all seemed like a dream
your kiss
how you told me it would all be
just,
just fine

i had a friend,
it’s 12:43
under a bridge
you weep

12:44
hold you,
gripping your wrists
‘i need to get out,’
‘get out of this prolonged dream,’
‘dream that if continues,’
‘it will take all away from us’

i have a friend
i am loved!
i am loved!

not like anyone,
not on the news
you’re special

have grown into someone
im not proud of

hands on blood
my own,
spread with no use.

laugh, laugh all you want
murderous drops running in your veins
selfish,
don’t you wanna get your hands red too?

sitting over a tree
rambling about all you’ve gone through
as if pain needs reminding!!
selfish.
you’ve done all of that to yourself.
ACT LIKE IT WAS MY FAULT!

‘they gave me a gun, to stop being foolish’
‘foolish?’
serves you right

HATE, oh hate!
if you knew,
how you’ve made my head melt
in boredom
OH, I’ve been bored!


grab that gun of yours,
and crack my skull open,
i would like to feel the air inside me.

they will see this
and they will go on forever
forever
forever
whatever!