blended in my dreams
confessions made in mind
wrote to you so clearly
and still so unrefined
as this life mimics
the gloomy clouds of heart
and honors your friendship
in moments when we part
but just before you go
remember once again
times which left us by
just as we chose them
memories when we teased
played ourselves to sleep
and wondered how once ran
these tranquil waters deep
in tales of olden shared
in talks of joy and pain
when everything was said
with single smile plain
when wrangling's over all
eclipsed our days and nights
trivial yet implicit
as something else might
though while i recall
of which is now past
my soul dreams of a time
of a lie that didn't last
and here i am now for
everyone to see
what comes of a man
too afraid to be
all so brittle and coarse
in your soft smother
i used one bitter lie
redeemed it with another
to the last question my dear
blunt as this cleansing rain
you answered in three words
with unspoken pain
you have no idea
of my gratitude
for these shall serve excuse
to always be with you
be with you in heart
be with you in mind
to see you dance in rain
through foliage of time
just few of many reasons
or talks i came up through
before the cunning lie
that i never loved you
bit by bit you leave
a hazy memory's shade
was i sane or not
there in the first place
only you shall know
who i really am
a man without the courage
to share his silly plan