We must start somewhere
And I'm starting from the lowest point
A mind full of everything
But hands completely empty

We must start
Else we will surely never reach an end
While I'm sleeping in my car
I dream of mansions

And its hard work
Its the ability to be strong
When my words can change worlds
And my music can make the people dance

We must start
And what better time
Than right now
I'm ready to take the next step

One by one
Elevation
Still I know the next step
Leads me closer to the tops of mountains

And one day I know I'll reach

Its a wood stove burning through the night
Crank it down
Deprive it of the oxygen it needs
So it can keep smouldering
Conserve its fuel
Damp the heat
Bank the coals
So that they can last until morning

And maybe
At least I hope
Remain energy to create with

Looks
Like we're going off the edge
And if it matters to you
It matters to me
Doesn't matter at all
Matter at all
Looks like we're hanging on a ledge
And I can't hold on
Even if I'm strong
We're going down
Going down
Looks
Like we're dancing in the fire
No safety nor savior
All eyes appear
To watch it burn
Watch it burn

In June
Let the music be heard
A new truth spoken by muse
Through human tools
Infused by views
And sights that soothe the soul
I hear you now on computer
Blue-tooth and telephone
I see you in Sumerian texts
Cave-drawings and cuneiform
I see you not how it used to be
And if I lose
Its proof I'm free
Because I choose to die
If not for an opportunity to try
Its June

I find a way
When color
When color has no meaning
And the painted hills
The hills I sleep on
Know
Only grey
I find a way
When pain is
When pain is the reason
To hope for joy
Joy from smile
Song
I find a way
When every path
Is a new way
To oblivion
Where my greatest dreams
Can be forgotten
Find a way
Life
To love forevermore

All the pain
All the frozen rain
All the strength we feign
And hope that's all in vain

These stories we would tell
If only we had someone to trust

All the past
These cynics and iconoclasts
Ideals we hold to fast
And dreams that never seem to last

These stories we would tell
If we knew we had someone to talk to

And maybe last year wasn't
What we wish it would be
But the future is much brighter
Than we ever thought it could be

These stories that tear us apart
Are what in the present build us

And in the future fill us
With the peace and prosperity we deserve
February was so cold
But we march to someplace warmer

Talk to me
Talk to me
You talk to me
I talk to you

If every year before has been sorrow
This next one will be happy

And I'll do all I can
Left and right
Sound and sight
The futures bright

And you'll have a happy birthday

(At least I hope you will)

In this life,
You get what you give,
So I give you my heart,
I give you my all,

And I don't expect the ocean to be full of sharks,
Not hammerheads nor hypocrites,
Only water that came from the rivers,
And the streams,
And the sky,

You get what you give,
So I give you my love

Tortured captain
The shadow learns of the queen
Angry says the road
Sorrow is the soil

Loving inner killing
Turning points
The river rolls strange
History's lucky ashes in the wind

Misunderstood unnoticed
Death shines on the seed
Stranger beneath the rose
A darkened crow the ultimate example

Expression rainbows
Black lines and edges
And in this stupid hour
Strangers recognize

The tortured captain

The world is losing gravity
How long can I hold onto the surface?
This turgid turf
These blades of grass
My feet don't know the ground
Without blood

All we ever wanted was to float away
Idyllic in expression and hopeful
As a prisoner

The light that I see can only be the remains
Of dead and dying stars
Figmants of imagination
Relics from the ancients
And our modern prophets seeking profit

The world is losing gravity
I am losing air

All we ever wanted was to float away
And end up in the sun

I was seven
Sitting in a sandbox
Playing with words

And a kid would scream
"Tag, you're it"
And I would bleed
Because I was

I was drunk
Delivering my daily diatribe
About symbolism, and feeling, and energy, and

Love

And the cop would pull me over
Because I was driving in two lanes
Talking to a ghost
Who couldn't understand

I told him
"I've been waiting for you,
And I didn't even know it"

Mr authority who I deplore
Was inspired by the poet
He let me go
Just like I did before


And later I thought
How senseless it really was
To be sensible

No
The dandelion is not beautiful
It's choking out the life
Of the tulips and daisies

I wouldn't mind to hold the rose
Even though thorns may cut me
How can it live
Amongst the crabgrass and creeping charlie?
How can I watch symmetrical bloom
Amongst purslane and velvet leaf

The ivy and the thistle

In a garden where weeds will grow
The years of our toil
Our hands in the soil pulling weeds
But leaving the root

Gather my children
Said the man in a school
I know what is good
And I know how to live

The definitive difference
Between right and wrong
There is truth in war
And lies in a song

And there is injustice
That we can make right
and there is morality
Darkness and light

And I know what god wants
I know how the world should be
                 -well the wise man knows all of this
                 Is flim-flam philosophy

Entertain the masses
The *****
The coliseum of the gladiators
I only want to make you laugh
I only want to cry
This face to the world
This face too

Nothing
I'll have nothing and I'll smile
And dance and joke
And act a fool
A jester in the court of kings

Out on stage I make the day
In my dressing room
I cry

Blooms symmetrical
Petals from a rose
I held you in my hands too tight
You only felt my blood
Spindly spiral thorns
It was your skin
I held so close to my chest
And my heart

I bleed
I see rivers raging
As a river flows from me
And even my hands can't staunch the pain

Now
What was the past?
Only a beauty besieged by time
Unspeakable crime
Now
What will I be now?
I only have my feet
I only have the next step I will take

In a world full of pavement

The flower doesn't grow from concrete
Still at the stoplights in the street
I read your name
And love you still
The flower doesn't grow from concrete
But all these sidewalks
I see your face
And love you still
The flower doesn't grow
From concrete
These parking lots
Where I got lost

Never to feel your spiny thorns again
Never to really feel
Never to bleed
Never to love

I used to bleed
And it made me happy

I knows it's raining where you are
Foggy London streets
I know
There's a storm inside of you
Some kind of beautiful flood
That makes us want to swim

I know you

I love it's raining where you are
Sullen raindrops assault the River Thames
I love
There's a song inside of you
That I sing
We sing together
We dance in the rain

I love you

I am the rain where you are
I see as the London Eye the  sky above Big Ben
I am
The seed I planted in a heart
Of love and hope
Through your lips a flower blooms

I am you

Broken tears
The hope of war
Hard hearts beating
The burning bed
Maybe hands and heads see eyes
And devils magic
mad love can never be happy
Little fallen moon
The deeper ocean
Children and monsters
The red star
Maybe hopes and dreams see faces
And dancing moments
Still
Mad love can never be happy
A hiding hell
The new cold fire
Imagined angels
To bring you death
Maybe love can't bring you joy
Its just illogical longing
Mad love can never be happy

Yes birds can fly
They can fly free like we want to
Forever from this domain
Reaching upwards, pushing towards
Heaven
Assencion

Yes birds can fly
And we as men simply can't
We can have our heads in the clouds
But our feet remain
Earthbound
Stagnation

But lest you forget
Birds can sing
And we can too.

The headlines are always bad news
Screams pull the night apart
Low tearing an old would open
To never heal
He said he loved her
I can't blame it on the the Tetons

What once was beauty
Colors change then fade to black
art becoming nothing
I don't even know how to story goes
Lions and lambs
But this autumn growing colder

The Frontlines inside my head are raging
Dreams fail down around me
Sorrowful September
With leaves falling
I never knew her favorite band
I can't blame it on the Tetons

It must have been Hell
Those eyes so cold
Those eyes which once were loving
And even the angels cried
He said he loved her
I never knew her favorite band
Rest in peace Gabby Petito

May my words be glorious
Victorious
Infintisimal
May they be a glitch in the matrix
Seen before
Done before
When it's the first time you hear

May they be the wings of angels
The hands of devils
The non committal
The ever lasting truth
And always
Let all of my words speak to you
In a way you never knew
Let them show deeper meaning
Profundity of feeling

May my words be shouted from a pulpit
Or whispered from a pit
May they be everything
Both fools gold
And wiseman's lesson
An image you see in your mind
The beauty of mankind
And the torture that comes from living
A painting in black and white
With no canvas
And space and shape
Are only sound
Of my words read aloud

May my words be the footfalls
Of a sanguine traveler
A despondent wanderer
Let my words find their home
That they may win or lose
Or be whatever you choose
Let them find you

May my words reach you

I came to find out
Your not what I thought you were
And I'm sorry
I never should have expected so much from you

Bullets, bullets
Love them all
I lift you up
To watch you fall

I've figured it out
That its all my fault
And I'm sorry
I should only expect that much from myself

Rainbows, rainbows
In the dark
The song of magpies
And meadowlarks

And this caterpillar becomes not what I thought
Not what I expect
I lift you up

I've regressed so tired
That even the blood in my veins
Can't find the strength
To bleed
It's all the wars I always fought
Battles lost
Like the love I found

I've devolved so quickly
My weapons became sticks and rocks
Prodding at a giant
Imagining I'm doing harm
When I hurt only myself
Only my love

And I live in caves
I'm afraid of fire
It won't be long
Until I'm in the trees again
Forgetting
What I once was

I swear these birds do not fly on wing
The sky is heavy
Undiluted gravity
Unbecoming gravitas
A party in the sky
Persona non grata
And what becomes?
Theatre where the stars won't act
The comedy of tragedy
Lives uncompelling melodrama
A panorama
Forgetting the hope
Of kaleidoscopes
I know these birds will not sing
Spring has come and gone
Now the underbelly dreamers
Are left to whither with fault
Sweltering festering heat
Summer suns to burn our skin
And leave us only wishing that we could be cold again
That the leaves should shrink and fade
And all the trees are dead
These songbirds of a winter ending
I held such hope aloft
And saw a symbol in their flight
I saw love inside a light
A beauteous sight
But even glorious wings
Fade from my eyes
In solemn nights

And all at the same time
Too many thoughts were on my mind
That I couldn't pick one
So much to say I said nothing

I just stared blankly as you walked away
When you wanted me to walk with you

And all at the same time
So many thoughts were on my mind
So many dreams that don't come true
So many answers I'll never find

I was just looking for the question
When it never really mattered anyways

I don't need friends
Jeoulosy invites envy
And weight can be so much to bare
Without carrying you on my coat tails

Bombs for the bombastic
I'm dropping all I can
Because my hands
Don't want to hold on

The only peaceful end to war
Is when everyone is dead
And I'm still standing

I have been censored
Censured
Left to let this rotten fruit destroy the garden
afraid to speak my truth for some delicate sensibilities

Bullets without guns
I've loaded up on ammo
And taken names
Wars will rage with or without me

But how does the war end?

The only peaceful end to war
Is when nations are destroyed
And I'm still standing

Lame
is giving a ****
What anybody else thinks

Truth is truth

God
I dont know you
You've always been a stranger to me
A no one
If anyone asked
I would say
You were no one
Still

How I need you now
I need you more than ever
I need you now
I need you

God
Please I ask
Keep me from the end I see
Grant me peace
I don't really know
If you are real
But youre all
I need

No wing is not broken
For the bird who most needs to fly

It was
Never
About filling empty spaces
It was
Only
About finding places to belong

Let the dark day come
When he finds his wings
Can't deliver him

No river meets the ocean
For the big fish in the little pond

It was
Never
About leaving the comfort of home
It was
Only
About finding a place he could belong

Let the dark day come
When he finds the current
Can't deliver him

No poet is not troubled
No poet is not troubled
Let the dark day come
When he finds that art
Can't deliver him

This drum set is almost complete
This rhythm
This backbone
This beat
Where are you now Keith Moon?
Where are you when we need you?

These cymbals speak to me so deeply
This music
This note
This history
Come back Nick Mason
Play the drums for me

Sleep well
My sweet angel
Sleep as an autumn seraph
In the bounty of the harvest
And there are no more nightmares
Only dreams

Sweet angel
Please sleep well
Knowing through the night
The bitter darkness
When you awake
I'll be at your side

And it will be enough to make you smile
Sleep well

Because I want nothing more
From you
Than what I need
And all I need
Is for you to keep dreaming
Sleep
Well
My
Sweet
Angel

and as for grace
there are angels in this place
and they sing
only blessings that they bring
fruits unto me
my holy protectors
I know of grace
as a brilliant light which you've waited to see all your life
the most inspirational light
as though all your pain was worth it
just for the chance to see

this was my grace
and even the delicate leaves that dance in the wind
move in a way that I believe
it's a softly pulled thread
it's being in love with everything
everything in love with me
she moves with grace
into empty minds and hearts
through city squares and darkened halls
dancing through all of life
with incredible beauty
impeccable flair
and as for grace
once I felt the touch
I knew as much
if ever there were something to save me

If....
Perchance
You happen to traverse all the seven hills
And the five blue stones
Shining aquamarine
If
It happens
There will be flowers growing on the side of the highway
And wheels on the road
Finding direction

I'm watching the way the wind
Plays with the flowers that grow on the side of the highway
The clouds delight to see
Dancing petals
Caressing breeze

If....
Perhaps
My world that separates me will be made smaller
By my love that grows
Becoming wings
If
It happens
You shuffle through my country and stumble through my town
These streets won't be made of concrete
And they won't feel so cold

I know in summer heat
There will always be flowers growing on the side of the highway
Only so your eyes can see
Myriad colors
Carried on a zephyr

Hello poetry confirmed my belief
In cynacism
If a poet can't live for others
Death is better

My feet may only move forward
I am a savage in the gardens of Babylon
Teaching love to all unbelievers
And castigated as a lunatic soul
I preach of dreams in living nightmare
Introduce color in a world that's only black and white
I eat your pain
As I paint rainbows on your soul
And if I save you
I save the world
And when you touch me
You touch my soul
Maybe its the only thing I've ever felt

You touch me
As I touch you

To make this beautiful music
I had to develop callouses
So that you could feel what I feel
As I feel less and less
Doesn't mars shine red in the night?
I'm the night
Pluto becomes a broken heart
And from your abandonment an empty sunrise
To make this music
I had to love you
Forever
All the while knowing
You're love was just a short time
To sing this beautiful song
I had to strain my voice
So that you could hear all of me
As a melody
Stretched thin amongst the scales
As my soul pains to bring expression
And my throat grows  raw

Still maybe and all I ever hope for
This creation
This child of mine
Is something you hold close
To your breast
And even in your darkness
You see a light
Even in the silence
You sing along

Life: too much
I can only wonder
If I am drowning
Because the mainstream
Is too shallow

There are oceans
At least I'm sure
If I have never seen
There are oceans

Let my smile be a rifle
Let my hands become the sun
Let my feet become a carriage
Let my name become a song

Let my fame show now is gone
And is forever

Let my words

There are oceans

Art cannot exist
Within such selfishness
Beauty dies alone
Unnoticed

Creo que
Lo es algo que conozco
Es una ajena
Extranjero
Amante

El espacio desnudo
Entre las puntas de luz
Se necesitan
Se mantienen
Las planetas
Adonde podemos ajuntar

Creo que
Se caiga perfectamente
Aunque no mas tengo miedo
De las sombras
Sombras solo existan
Si hay luz

I've become a one man submarine
Always diving, always diving
I'm lost at the ocean floor
The darkest part of the sea

And I know
Nothing I can say
Will let me find a beach
Let me find my peace

One time I fell in love
I fell of a cliff
I kept falling
The darkest part of me

And there is
Nothing I can say
Nothing I can change
And I've changed because of you

This one man submarine
Submerged and needing air
How can I live
How can I breathe

When nothing I can do
Can undo what I've done
No man I can be
Except what I've become

I guess if I can't love you
I have to learn to love the darkness
A one man submarine
There's always something in the water

Just love
Long eyes like good heart
Know life
Make time tell
Fingers want soul
Soft body

Dust comes
Sun weight lady burning
Care wings
Twisted limbs poetry
Hard legs and fragile arms
Flesh dreams

The pickaxe was charming
And you once were whole
But the tanned laborer
Burnt brown by the sun
Made the pickaxe sing
Whistle in the wind
You felt the impact
The pickaxe once so charming
Broke you in two
These broken rocks
Fields strewn with your saddest story
About how time erodes
And the hand of man
Destroys
You were there in the beginning
The earth started spinning with you
Your witness to creation
Your abysmal ghost
You were there in the beginning
And all your broken pieces
Your bitter memory
Will be there in the end
With words unspoken
Shouting louder than the dying sun
All your broken pieces
Will be there in the end
To testify

I want the stars to shine
Over your fragile skin
So many morters and pestils
So many wrecking *****
We can destroy the buildings we live in
And keep on living

I want the moon to beam
Into your delicate mouth
So much concrete and asphalt
So many jackhammers
We can build a parking lot
And keep on moving

A want the the night to seem endless
As deep as you are
We can shine a light
We can carry it so far
Our hands aren't time

They are infinity

Forever is only as long
As I love you
Because I will die
But my love won't

Someone
Somewhere
Is thinking good things about me
Somehow

I hope
I do
I hope
Its you

Someway
Something
Is reaching past this distance and time
Someone

I hope
I hope
I do
All I can say
I do
Hope that
Its you

Some dream
Coming true

My ear is burning

I used to feel the tides
Feel at ease with them
Let the water wash over me
I used to be
Where the water met the land
The oceans wave at me
And used to drown
At low tide
The sea watching me recede
I used to
Be high as I watched the tide
Rolling in at night

But all the sharks
And shipwrecks
Riptides to pull me under
My nautical affinity

I fear
I may never see the ocean again

Indicated by the moon
The way it rises
While its waning
Climbing a ladder to the height of the night
And looking back
At the ocean he loves

The moon forever dances with the ocean
The push and the pull
The tides follow suit
As moving feet from mystic memory
Some eternal truth
Some kind of love

The night is a time of beauty
When the blanket is the sky above
And the stars are there for us
To watch and guide us
On, along, to guide us home
They watch forever dance
And sing as spheres of song

If you listen you can hear
In our revelry the stars are smiling
As their hands of softest light
Lay the moon into the morning
And show us all
A better way to fall

The moon will sleep in peace inside the ocean

I see it
I see it and I don't want to
I see it
I see it and I know it's true
I see it
But it hurts to believe it
War
I don't want war
And you don't want war
No one I know wants war
No one you know
So why?
Why is there still this disease upon Humanity?
Children sent to foreign lands
Strangers who are brothers
Cut down in the name of something we don't understand
And why?
For what reason?
What is the motivation?
What is the goal?
I see it
It's dark and sinister
I see it
And I know the reasons
But I couldn't show you
I could say it plainly and bring with me proof
But so many eyes are closed
So many minds
Why?
All I can do is ask why
And hope you ask it too

When the light
Is to bright to see
We go blind
Believing its darkness

We go blind
Running through the night
Hoping for the best
That we can

When all me need
Is each other

We are lost
Wishing for the best
Expecting the worst
We are lost

And all our love is wasted

When its dark
Too dark to to see
We need to feel
To know what is real

We are blind
Running through the night
Wishing for the best
That we can

And all our love is wasted

I, no longer drowning
hold fast
current around me
tried to pull me under
but her
I, I found a way to hold on
how to be strong
I found a way
her hands
its almost everything I need
when I dont speak the words to say "I love you"
I dont have to
because everytime she looks in my eyes
she can see she is saving me again
not wave nor rapid
her hands

I was the strongest swimmer
And I keep swimming
With my fingers
I am a wizard
Shooting spells and encantations
I swim up the river
While most drown in the mainstream
The shallow
I am a shark
And I eat guppies without a thought
I swim in outersapce
I paddle out on my board
And find a sound wave
I ride it into you heart
And you are for ever changed
I was the strongest swimmer
So its my own choice to drown

How many places have I slept before?
With you
Without you
Within you
Forever
The music has always been magic
Much more
Maybe we find a meaning
Sleep well my dreams from the day
I couldn't find
I can't define
Some other part
Some other design

It cuts me like knives

Please smile while I bleed

So turn out the lights
Let the rain fall
As I close my eyes
And go numb

I'm dealing with heartbreak
In the same old familiar way
By breaking everything around me
And blaming it on you

By breaking myself
Because I feel I deserve the pain