Love is the death of honour
pain the demise of grace
voices whisper and taunt these thoughts
plaguing my waking hours, infecting my dreams
i stand before, then toward i crawl
yet another cross-roads, another choice
run, tempts the voice in vicious spite
run and not return, someone else again, reinvent
that your worthlessness may not be found
the true face to stay hidden behind façade
flee, pretend you can be free
seductively the voices cajole without cease
to walk away from those i owe
leaving honour in the dust of broken promises
for the pain they bring is to great to bear
here people that love me in hope and grace
you are not worthy, voices sibilant, bring only pain
and i know it is all i am, consumed by hurt
a heart beating on for no purpose, absent of reason
love immolates me in corrupted, desired, fiery agony
destroying strength, abolishing honour
here grace has nothing to do but fall, fall fall
all,the while voices giggle in mocking murmur.

I walk around this city a lot. I usually try and smile and meet eyes with the people that walk past. Why? Because it stops me from doing target assessments on them. What i want to do is scream at them and nail their heads to the floor. But i don't, i smile in an happy fashion. Unfortunately not many people get to see that smile, as most Aussies walk around with their heads focussed on the ground, as if to meet someone's eyes is to commit some kind of heinous crime. And it's a shame, because a smile, just one smile, a warm greeting or even just a nod, can change a persons day for the better. So do me a favour - Smile at people, meet their eyes - be friendly. For no other reason then you can.

There is a place, far out there in the darkness
where shades of black are the only companions
there monsters stand bold but moments away
withered, eyeless creatures untouched by sun
never seen, though presence felt in terrors embrace
in this roiling expanse of unseen horror but thought
direction once known is lost, a meaningless farce.
Here then comes a glow, a way leading forth
bringing shape to the formless, stalking void
that fire is you, burning consuming the night
Now with smile and hope, stride into the light.

I always smile at those i pass
meet the eyes, for who knows what spark
may catch tinder and flame

though flame never catches
on indifferent stone
and they're eyes are ever cast downwards

I could escape, far away
to the void between Galaxies
and still i would not be free
for my mind turns does turn to you
as hands ever reach
for a burning fire

No matter how divided the mind,
Broken the heart,
Conflicted the soul,
The breath of the ocean on skin,
The smell of the sand,
The crash of the waves,
Brings calm

To the sun we gather
For glory in light
To the endless sky we strive
For the peace between stars