They say I have talent
but what does that mean
when I don’t have the courage
to follow my dreams

I’ve heard the things they say
One day I’ll make it big
But do they even realize
I’m standing on a twig

My body weighing it down
In no time I’ll come crashing
down from their expectations
and they’ll know it was all for *nothing

Here’s to the girls who can drive me crazy
we fight,
we curse,
and want to **** each other
But in the end, we still love one another

Here’s to the girls I’ll never forget
those late night drives,
boy crazy moments,
and 7 am wake up calls, I’ll always remember
even when the fire of my life burns down to an ember

Here’s to the girls who have stood by me
we can talk about anything,
or nothing at all,
and still gain some comfort
With just a minimal effort

Here’s to the girls who are my sisters
no, we’re not blood,
we don’t look alike,
and even though we may be neither
We’ve come to learn some things run deeper

Here’s to the girls that make life worth living
we’ve grown up together,
laughed together,
and cried together, but if one day we stray apart
That’s okay, because they’ll each have a place in my heart

Here’s to the girls that I hope will read this
You are beautiful,
You are strong,
And you will do great things
You’re just learning to fly, just now spreading your wings

Those are my girls, and I hope they’ll remember
This little poem I wrote, when they’ve moved on to something better
All the rainy days will pass, but I’ll still be here
Standing in the past, with the sunlight shining clear

Yes, I’ve been to Hell
I saw the fiery blaze
Stared into Satan’s eyes
And lost myself in his gaze

I remember the screams
Of the ****** and forsaken
I was too late to escape
For my soul had been taken

But what I didn’t see coming
Was that my heart was gone too
Had I fallen in love
Just when life fell through?

The demon for which I fell
Lured me from my path
He brought me to the Underworld
Where I knew merciless wrath

He had the looks of an angel
But it wasn’t until I’d fallen
I saw his black heart
Which was by no means uncommon

He twisted my world
Until I forgot who I was
Until he became my everything
My life's only cause

This demon I speak of
Who changed my world view
Oh what was his name…..
Oh wait, it was you

Once you’ve been to the breaking point
There’s a mark on your soul forever
A wound that deep doesn’t disappear
It’ll heal, but the scar will leave you never

I can still picture in my mind
The little pills piled in my hand
The knot in my stomach
Things going as planned

I remember the panic
When I swallowed those pills
Throwing them back up
Too scared to make the ****

Isn’t that human nature though
Survival drilled into our being
Even when you want it all to end
That ******* instinct keeps your heart beating

I look back on those days
And still feel the shame
Thinking those watchful eyes knew my secret
Stupid I know, but I felt it just the same

Can you imagine the desperation
To be at the end of your rope?
Then living with those actions forever
Struggling to recapture lost hope

In this forsaken
This land of the taken
These memories shaken
Why have I awakened?

The time has come now
For you all to bow down
To the new leader now
Will this be allowed?

We hungry and lonely
The ****** and the lowly
Forced to worship the holy
The one and the only

This god who forbade us
Who made us and changed us

Is it just me
Who is dying to see
What it means to be free
To choose what to believe

Will someone explain
If in this new reign
Will life be the same
Can we even blame?

The ones who allowed it
Are those who endowed it
They saw it befit
To make us commit

Now to doubt is a crime
It’s no better with time
We must rely on these rhymes
To break the confines

So in these words I impart
The plagues of my heart
So you may take part
When this order falls apart...

Walk away from the sun
Forget what you’ve done

Give the darkness a try
Kiss your nightmares goodbye

For in the darkness you see
We’re all family

And in the shadows we thrive
Do more than survive

Give up your inhibitions
We’re all on the same mission

To live a life so sweet
We all feel complete

Give the darkness a try
Embrace the dark side

Walk away from the sun
Forget what you’ve done

There’s a reason that I write
Staying up the whole **** night
Just to finish another piece
That will set your soul alight

There’s a reason that I write
One hidden from your view
Not known to one and all
Made clear to very few

There’s a reason that I write
This is my pride and joy
My life laid down bare
Something time cannot destroy

This is the reason that I write
It keeps my mind in check
To keep from going off the deep end
To avoid the inevitable wreck

That’s the reason that I write
The words are like my blood
Containing my very essence
Let loose in an elegant flood

That’s the reason that I write
I don’t expect you to understand
But to whom it may concern
This is my life unmanned