he had planned a suprise,
told me but lied,
i knew what was on his mind,
i wish i could hit rewind

i looked him in the eyes,
and told him that i am fine,
we sat in the cafe,
my ex was sitting by

2:24 came as we finished our day,
although i didn't get my suprise I love him anyway

the moment you
walked into my life
you gave me
a reason
to..
survive

I'd be
completely
lost
with-out you

so please
don't
ever
leave

stabbing pain around my wrist
although i swear i hit my fist
ace bandages covering up the mark
when it heals i will be off to a new start

im tempted to use my right hand
it wasn't something that i had planned
i play it off like it was just a joke
but i had finally broke

it hurts even to use my hand to write
my school books aren't even that light
i won't live my life restricted
but that is something everyone would have predicted

So many things-
We complain about in life
It is time- that we
Stop taking things so light

Now and days
Everything is a game
But I know
I don't want it to remain this way

A world of violence
A world of loss
Destruction-
Is the ultimate cost.

Perfection
Jenga
Blockhead
Risk
Twister
30 seconds
Kerplunk
Luck of the Draw

Do not expect me
To do your job for you
You have two capable hands
You have two capable feet

So walk yourself over there
And do it yourself

It is one thing
If you are busy
Another thing
If you are just being lazy

I have things that
I need to get done
And I won't be letting you
Have any fun

My heart beats much like the beat of a drum,
No matter where we are. as long as we are together. i am glad that I came along,
This is something i call young love,
It is more beautiful than any song a bird has sung

i know that he won't hurt me,
I know that he will never leave,
So stop and stare,
And know that I still care

you are there to comfort me,
And that is when i know that this isn't a dream

one minute closer
until we say
our final good byes

one moment closer
until we part
separate ways
I hope that you
will always remember
that I love you

but the clock is ticking
time is almost up
and one day - I hope
we will meet again
or I can always
pretend

tonight was the night                                                    at first nothing went right.                                                           ­                                                        silence filled the air,                                                             ­                                                              bad luck I would say that I had my fair share.                                                           ­                                                                 ­                       he looked like he was going to cry....                                                          ­                                       sadly I knew why.                                                             ­                                                                 hugged him a total of five times                                                            ­                                             sitting here thinking I don't have to make up lines that rhyme                                                            ­                                                                 ­                      he gently removed the hair from my face,                                                            ­                                                                 ­                        it was a dream he decided to chase,                                                           ­                                        he leaned in and kissed my lips,                                                            ­                                            he put his hands on my hips

clouds swirling up in the sky above me
depression
like a funnel
waiting to devour me

to conquer me
to finish me off

in the end
would it even matter?

A waste
of precious space
Getting in
your way

Although a
Part of me
Wishes you would ask me
to stay

I don't want to fight anymore
why should i even try?

but
I am not fighting
this alone

I have to
remain strong
for all the people
I love

My heart lies in your hands,
your happiness will always be my command,
I will not cause you any pain,
because what would I have to gain

because of you I rose from my grave,
I am so happy that you choose me to save,
with-out you I would be just another fish in the sea,
boy you have no clue how much you mean to me

I promise to never leave your side,
because with-out you I wouldn't survive,
thank you for everything that you have done for me,
your love is the reason that I was set free

They light up when you look my way,
And when you come closer they fade away,
Knowing that you will never see me,
I walk away and let it be

My eyes change colors from bright green to gray,
Knowing that in the end I will be the one to pay,
If only you would take the time to look into my eyes,
You would know that beautiful girls never tell lies

lift your head up little angel,
please don't cry,
please don't let this be our last good bye

don't let the devil ruin your life,
please don't back down-continue to fight,
know that you can lean on me,
and take my hand when you need somebody

don't let these people bring you down
never let them turn your life around
you mean so much to everybody
because all I want is for you to be happy

see a smile on your face,
know that you can last through any day,
just be strong,
and know that you belong

Things happen
In mysterious ways
Like what had happened
Just earlier today

When listening to
The Stickers
Live
And upbeat

I felt this
Muse
That made me
Complete

It has been a long time
My dear friends
But I still have some things
That have to be said

Shout out
To the lead singer named Joe
Who said follow your dreams
Because anything is possible
As long as you believe

Broken heart repaired once more,
Whether or not you find it again I cant say for sure
but the day you find someone that will change your life,
You feel suddenly alive

friendships come and go but this will always stay,
I cant say  that everything will be okay,
Things do happen and hearts do get broken,
Reality hits and you are suddenly awoken

the truth behind love lies within,
Where it all begins,
It doesn't matter who you are,
It never really is that far

He sits there and tells me that he needs me,
But the way he acts at times. I would have to say that I disagree,
Says he regrets the day when we broke up,
The fighting begins to erupt

He still means the world to me,
But even after all of this I dont know what we will end up to be,
I really miss the guy I once knew,
Hidden behind the covers . i am hoping that he will shine through

the world grows darker
as time flies by,
it will not stop for a second,
will not give me a second to breathe

it is like it is suffocating me,
things pile up one by one,
but there is not enough time to get it all done

the walls I build...
keep me trapped in my own mind

I need to escape
from this treacherous place

I will not  waste
one more second this way

Life
A clock
Ticking away

Each second
Passes
Another second
Closer to death

There is
No guarantee
That we will live
To see tomorrow

So stop
Taking advantage
Of time
Because time
Can not be replaced

being held by a rusty cage no longer,
experiencing this world much more,
and feeling so much strong,
than I ever could have before you

before I was living,
in a dark world,
thought that I had nothing to offer,
until you came around

always thinking loneliness was my fate,
all day I'd do nothing but waste,
until you showed me that it's not too late,
and our love keeps me from hate

you scared away the demons,
that haunted my life,
now I am happily living,
with you by my side

This is for all my true friends,
They will be with me to the very end,
They will do anything to make me happy,
My best friend used to be my pappy

He passed away a few years ago,
He picked me up when I was feeling low,
When he died he took with him a little girl,
That girl turned into a lady ready to face the real world

I walked up a ramp one day,
Looked for help but it was too far away,
I broke down,
People were looking from all around

I was the one
That had your back all of these years
But something snapped inside
I was tired of all the lies

How you'd-
Be with me
Come to me
But

All the excuses
You made
Not to be in my corner
When I needed you the most....

And now I-
let you go
Because it's whats best for you
It's whats best for me

After all the girls-
After all the guys-
I ended up
Right back at your side

But I guess
This is-
what's best

Because
All the excuses
You made
Were just
Getting in the way

Of what is-
Best for you
What is best for me

The work I do expresses me,
I am a lover at heart as far as you can see,
my friends and family mean the most to me,
my personality shines through every word you read

my inspiration comes from the world around me,
I got my pen and paper,
and the words just come to me,
I write to show my point of view

not because I expect people to care,
but because it helps me be free
the meaning in my work,
is in the soul

but before it was trapped in my heart,
where darkness was in control

Stuck in the middle,
you want to cry,
don't want to say goodbye,
you really want to be civil

which person is right?
I will found out tonight,
I will be sad if I choose the wrong way,
I will make my decision sitting by the bay

I know the one I make will be the best for me,
so all of you can let me be,
I am my own person, and I control my life,
Letting you control me-just wouldn't be right

put things on the line,
most of the time,
don't know if things will go as planned,
I continue this journey through-out the land

things are never going to be easy,
to this day I live in uncertainty,
things will never be set in stone,
some things will plan out on their own

I am a revelation of God,
and a reflection of elegance and class,
to many I am their leader,
I focus on my personal independence

I can tend to be very passionate,
and can be very compassionate,
I can be very romantic,
my personalities are very magnetic

I may easily fall in love,
but I can be easily hurt,
and that's why I can be quick-tempered

I gave up,
Trying to please you
Because i know that i can't win,
This game that YOU are trying to play,
With me

I am your precious victim,
The one that you despise
But i know that
There is love,
Hidden with-in
Your hideous,
Demented eyes

They lied to me
Once or twice
But I guess your
So called " love "
Will suffice

For now

My grave is dug deeper
Trying to make me- disappear
But being buried alive-
isn't my biggest fear

I took your hand
And tried to make you mine
Because I've been here for you-
Since the beginning of time

But I lost you
No I gave you up
And then all this fighting
Did erupt

I would do anything
To have you in my arms- again
But I'd be lucky
to have you as my friend

I miss you
And
Want you to know
How I feel

A part of me dies
When you say good bye
If she makes you happy
Then I will be alright

But if she brings
You pain..
I would want to tell you
That You Had It Coming

I've waited here all this time
Told you I wanted to make you mine
And for a moment you loved me too
But there is no getting through to you