they said time heals emotions
but i don't get that notion
time passes by, im in a rut
stagnant pain, an unhealing cut

wait a bit longer they say
you'll for sure be ok
a doubtful smile
i'm in denial

future looking dimmer
letting my body simmer
drowning, a pool of shame
thoughts i cannot change

embarrassed and alone
my struggles now well known
time has passed
only depression has amassed

lost in rehabilitation
happiness, my deprivation
how do i rise above
when shame fits like a glove

Where did I go?
You'll never know
I couldn't hold on
Didn't make it to dawn
Frowns replaced smiles
Anger stretching for miles
No surprise I'm bitter
Malice giving you jitters
I have vanished
You're souls been banished
From my heart

There’s something wrong with the world today
An abounding amount of social decay
Gone are the times of moral and manner
Enter an era of lust and clamor
I refuse to conform to this madness
I will not be overcome by your indefinite sadness
I soak in happiness through a puff of smoke
Because the world's too ****** not to roll and ****

A person you see and hear
Personality exceeding fear
Who is this person you see?
I'm sorry to say it isn't me

To see me is to see obscurity
A steadfast mind full of purity
No interest in the future or present
I could be rich or I could be a peasant

What I want from life i cannot buy
I could be normal but I'd rather not try
You say you know the real me
But your words come out uncertainly

A shadow of what I used to be
I live my life uncertainly
Alone in dense depression
Weight of loss in my possession
What was told to be mine forever
Gone faster than wind and a feather

Through my times of trouble
Memories surround me, in a bubble
My skin warms feeling your touch
Smiling as if I saw you blush
Your faint voice filled with love
Like a message from above

Breaking down, weak like a pawn
As soon as it came the feelings gone
Life lost in the flow of time
Theft of love, a horrid crime
My well being muddied and brown
Thoughts of you, bringing me down