sometimes it comes crawling back
Into my mind
Taking over everything I have
there's nothing I can do
I fall into this hole
Filled with darkness and confusion
Feeling so lost
and all I know to do is cry
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EVERYONE SAYS TO TAKE CHANCES AND DO WHAT FEELS RIGHT TO TELL THE PERSON YOU LOVE THAT YOU LOVE THEM TO TELL THE PERSON YOU MISS THAT YOU MISS THEM BUT YOU SHOULDN'T BECAUSE IF THEY DO NOT FEEL THE SAME WAY YOU ARE GOING TO BE SO BROKEN INSIDE AND NOTHING ***** MORE THAN WANTING SOMEONE WHO DOES NOT WANT YOU BACK
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I hear your name
And my heart breaks a little bit more
I see your face
And my body aches a little bit more
I can't go a day without wanting to be with you
Holding you tight
Having your scent stick to my clothes
I can't stop replaying our best moments in my head
I can't stop the video
Over and over and over again
You said you loved me
Why would I believe you?
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It's hard to forget sometimes ,
Everything that's happened
Especially when it effected me so much.
It's hard to forget the heartbreaks
The lonely nights
The times I felt like I was all I had
And even then not be completely sure.
It's hard to forget the friends
That I lost over such stupid reasons
Friends that I had amazing memories with.
It's hard to forget the reason I have these scars,
As they made me who I am today.
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I FEEL LIKE SUCH A MESS AND I AM GETTING WORSE AND I AM NEVER HAPPY ANYMORE AND I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO COPE WITH IT ALL AND I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH FOR BEING LIKE THIS BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO STOP THE SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN TAKE
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DON'T TELL ME YOU LOVED ME
DON'T ACT LIKE YOU CARE
BECAUSE IF YOU DID LOVE ME
OR CARE FOR MY SOUL
YOU WOULDN'T HAVE GAVE UP
LEAVING ME DANGLING HERE ALONE
DON'T SAY THAT YOU MISS ME
DON'T TRY TO MAKE THINGS BETTER
BECAUSE IF YOU DO MISS ME OR WANTED THINGS BETTER
YOU WOULDN'T HAVE DISSAPPEARED AND MADE ME TRY TO FORGET
I THOUGHT IT WAS DIFFERENT THIS TIME
AND SO I HOPED YOU WERE THE ONE
BUT TURNS OUT YOU LEAVING CAN'T JUST BE UNDONE
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I MISS YOU SO **** MUCH AND IT IS KILLING ME INSIDE TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE OUT THERE LOOKING FOR A NEW GIRL TO BE WITH NOT EVEN THINKING ONCE ABOUT ME AND OUR PAST I MISS YOU SO **** MUCH AND YOU WOULDN'T EVEN KNOW BECAUSE WE DONT TALK AT ALL AND I HATE THAT!
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what do you do when you find out
your first love,
the one you love
doesn't love you anymore.

what do you do when you find out
that boy that cares about you so much
way too much,
does it to every other girl.

what do you do when you find out
the ones you think love you,
cherish you
just pretend to get what they want.

what do you do when you realize,
how stupid you were
how very stupid
to fall for such bad boys.

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what is life?
are we actually all living?
we all have this planned life we want to have;
finish school,
have a good job,
get married,
have kids,
grow old,
then die.
Its a routine,
designed for us to live
a "happy life"
how many of us are actually happy
how many people can truthfully say
"I'm happy and I love my life."
not many, I'm sure.
We all say to make the best of things
to live in the present.
you only live once,
take risks and never regret anything you do.
But some people, are just tired
tired of taking risks and it ending badly
having to regret things they have done,
since it changed them drastically.
I say that we should try to live life as much as we can,
we could die any moment,
and as much of us are sad a lot, or say
"I wanna die."
Only some truly mean it.
This isn't living,
its surviving.
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these thoughts
sweeping
over
my brain
taking over
taking the controls
making everything seem
impossible
no ambition
no worth
everything
s l o w l y
drowning out of me
until two words are left
"why me"
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why is my breathing so heavy
and my stomach in pain
why do I feel nauseous
and not feel sane.
my body so weak
its so hard to move
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that one love
I cherished
that one love
I miss so **** much!
everything about him
that one love
I love so deeply
so uncontrollably
it just
h u r t s
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YOU AND YOUR CHARMING SMILE AND MAGICAL EYES THAT JUST DRAW ME IN.
YOU AND YOUR COMFORTING ARMS AND SOOTHING VOICE THAT CALMS ME
YOU AND YOUR EVERYTHING THAT MADE ME SO ATTACHED TO YOU
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I don't want to know you do that
I don't want to know that you feel like you hate your life so much you hurt yourself
it kills me inside to know something like that
it kills me even more to know that we're an hour apart and im not able to get to you and just hug you
give you a big hug
tell you everything will be better
you can get through this
one person can change your life
but you decide
a good or bad change.
make it a good one
and continue on.
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why did we want to get older?
thinking there would always be a shoulder
to lean on when things go wrong
but all we do is try to stay strong.
so many dissapointments
and let downs
we just feel like our feelings are being drowned.
only some stay
making things not so gray
our young years brang so much laughter
and happily ever afters
not knowing what was to come
wishing for the past to be back
not expecting this stressful attack
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Waking up in the middle of the night
And you on my mind
Is dangerous
My emotions go everywhere
Overthinking everything that we have overcome
And the one thing that sticks in my mind is that one day
That one day we met up after the breakup
After summer time
That one day where we both missed each other
And you thought you could get a second chance
That day made me realize something
Something that I knew before but had forgotten
Your love
Your sweetness, your hugs, your kisses, the way you make fun of the things I say just so I will get irritated and hit you and you will
Just kiss me !
And it would be so cute
I realized that you always let me talk and try to understand what I'm saying
I realized how much you cared about me
And when I was realizing all of this,
I realized that I never wish we broke up in the first place.
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