I had told you
in the field of grass
when dragonflies hovered by
not to break my heart and never to
cease this moment in which passed
an eternity lasted under the sky
i dont know, what forever meant
anymore

But all i asked was not to break
my heart, and myself
but you broke both in precision
its better to be burnt
alive and at stake
and to feel a little less
tried to save a girl,
from all her nightmares
but it hurt instead

Waiting to fall out of love?
You already  have
its me who pain you gave
who's afraid to love again

i used to wish
for you every
night at 11:11
but now that
i've stayed up
long enough to
even surpass that
time of day i have
realized that in
doing so, I have
wasted over 365
minutes wishing
for you to be
mine.

i find it beautiful to be
made out of the universe.
atom by atom,
electron by proton,
we are the stars.
we are the
mysteries
within
us.

but, she asked you to
    stay and yet you
disobeyed?

I can't count the days
That have been absorbed
With thoughts of you

I can't count the ways
That you have given me
A whole new meaning

I can't count the times
You have made me smile
Simply by giving me your own

I can't measure the infinite amount
Of love and desire
That live in my heart

I can't measure the "top notch" quality
Of your love and affection
That you provide for me

I can't fathom
Living in a world
Without you

I can't fathom
Not seeing you
Every day

I can't fathom
Waking up
Without you there

I can't fathom
Not having you near
For kisses and hugs

But I can love you forever
And I will

when he said, "this is
my note, after all, thats
what people do, right?
leave a note?" my heart
completely caved
      >     in.    <

when my teacher said
that a lot of people
commit suicide due to
bullying or because they
feel unaccepted,
i raised my hand to
speak up about the
facts.


the true facts.

how more than half of the
homeless teenage population
are gay. they were kicked out
by their mums and dads.

how its not just the
bullying, how its
them too.

they feel so alone and
we always wonder why
there is a new name in
the paper saying,
"Suicide--Age --"
and yet because of
someone being p    u s h  e       d
to                                                      far

it made them take
their own life.

i wish i could stop
suicides,
i wish for once
i could be the one who
closed the door on
death.

but im no rolemodel,
i always let death
back in.

but that doesnt mean i
wont help you take
him out.

i dont exactly have
anything to complain
about today.

the sun is shining
the music is nice,
my cat is fluffy,
hell,

today is ******* fantastic

im studying in my room,
im watching my nephew,
im drinking some tea,
and scrolling through
tumblr.

im messaging my friend(s)
im eating some pancakes
painted my nails earlier,
today is awesome.

ive started to think a
lot about myself lately
because all i do is
think about others and
its not fair to me at all.

when i go to homecoming
this week i will
smile and kiss my date and
be happy because hey,
im alive.

i wont show the pain
im feeling when i see
the man i love and
ill dance all night cause
i look ******* hot and
nobody can tell me i dont.

i wont let him get into my
thoughts and i wont let that
fabulous tuxedo he'll be wearing
distract me from the good things
in life.

like his smile or his
eyes or his 5 o'clock shadow or
his hands or his
height or the way
he bites his lip and
looks down or
how he says my
name.

no. i wont allow him
to get to me,
i have a dance to
attend.