i will always be the one
that is a little out of li
ne

i wish we only saw souls
only heard the thoughts of the mind
fell in love with our eyes forever closed
and hands tied behind our backs

it’s all the same stories
hidden under different
colours,
languages,
and intentions

when i tell people my age
that i have a depression
a lot of them tell me to
try and smoke
something a bit stronger
so i smoked joints
two days in a row
and the terrifying thing was
that i felt good

i stayed alive
so i wouldn't cause any pain
but then you came along
and had me wanting a future
because no time in the world with you
could ever be enough

i went for a walk in the
woods
and as i was walking
i looked around and saw
all the beautiful
trees

the most beautiful ones
were the ones that had
marks,
scars
and bumps
how very special they are
will forever amaze
me

i unfolded my mind for
you
bit by bit
day by day
tore down walls
that had been built up
by pain and loss
you ignited a small flame
in my ever so grey heart
and then you left
leaving my heart at tease

i'm so very
very
tired
in which way
or of what
is for you to
guess

he changed
and not for the better
i may have become
bitter
but it's only because i mourn
the person he once
was

i'm in a room
not too hot
nor too cold
just quite perfect for
me

i stay in the room
and the days go by
now the mirrors come
one mirror
two mirrors
three mirrors

the room is filled with mirrors
i try to look away
but my naked self is starring
i don't fit in here
i run
and now it starts all over

the most beautiful part of me
is my mind
and soul
i'll tell you tales
of a broken girl
who rose from flames
but never show you
the naked body
the flames left standing

i can never think of something to write
when i feel like writing
but when i force myself
to look at my keyboard
thoughts stumble around
sentences are put together
and yet i do not understand all of them
but i write them down
for you
and for me
i hope that i will one day understand it all