Why I am not sad about what I wouldn’t have accomplished is because everything I did accomplish is far greater than I can imagine. Even though I think you were the closure, I need it. If that closure weren’t met, I think I wouldn’t have ever moved on and let rain finally fall. I am on an endless road that has come to a stop. All I can do is turn back and cry. I never knew I would make this far that I could turn back and cry. Now I am just standing here with a confusing wet roadmap with my hesitant foot on the edge of my stop while the other is eager to go back.

You're my awful addiction
I'd let you break my heart every day
Just to see you smile

Despite the screaming in my head,
The tears in my eyes
"I'm fine..."
Is what I said
"I'll be there in a few minutes..."
Then I put down the phone
And ran into the street
My suicide
"An accident" they'll say
The perfect plan.

The average person lies four times a day,
The most common lie is
"I'm fine"

I nvisible
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M arred
F ucked
I nsecure
N uerotic
E mpty

I pray for her safety,
The world is scary.
I pray for her happiness,
She deserves joy.
I pray for her,
That not even a hair will bother her.

Someday love,
We'll live down by the sea,
Together for all of eternity.

Someday love,
We'll be away from pestering eyes,
Making a life for you and I.

Someday love,
We'll grow old with our son and daughter,
Joyously watching as they grow.

Someday. . .

True love,
Who love?
You, love.