Sitting still under a sunny day
I could not help but notice your sad face
I held your hand
But it was not mine that you want

Seeing the pain in your eyes
Heal them I wanted to try
Though I know that I could not do
Tears of pain are in my eyes too

You once said that I was the perfect friend and never want to change
Yet in my heart I always hope it was not the same
All I could do was hold my feeling down
And hide the pain in my heart as it pounds

You cried as I held your hand
Though I know it will never be mine that you want
Your tears make the beat of my heart want to end
But I could always only comfort you as a friend

Sitting still under a sunny day
Without nothing to say
I held your hand
Hoping someday it will be the one you want

Standing at the edge of the bridge
Wondering what lies at the other end of it
Wanting to take a step ahead
Yet it still isn't time, he said.

Every minute of a day just grows longer
My heart is always beating stronger
Waiting and always hoping
Can I ever stop falling?

The sun set and rose
Still, I'm waiting in the cold
Finally closing my eyes
Into the wind, I let myself fly

I was falling
Trying my best for someone to hear my calling
Tears were my only friend
Will it be so till the end?

Just when I had given up all hopes
A hand from above was thrown
And at one blink, he caught me
Jesus had held me finally

He had heard my call
And was only waiting to give up my all
"I will never let go," he said
Up until the end.

The footsteps kept replaying in my ear
As my heart starts to beat rapidly
Tears form out of fear
Afraid to be left behind again

Yet what is done is done
Those footsteps would not come back
They will always be a memory of leaving
A painful and agonizing experience

But in a moment where I am lost
I try to find his face
And maybe I can see him coming back to me
Those footsteps were not leaving but coming home

Time passes by still I am in the past
Lingering to find the lost
Yet the footsteps start to fade away
And his face starts to blur

Where will I find them
I don’t want them to leave
Like the footsteps that left
Don’t let its sound leave me too

Till finally I saw your face
And heard your footsteps
Yet as I stood in front of you
Like the wind, I was only passed by

And as I look at your shadow leaving
With the same footsteps leaving once again
Amidst it all I found calmness
And felt my hand waving goodbye

The shadow, the footsteps and his face
They always leave me
But this time they finally bid farewell
And I did so too

The fear won't surpass again
It has come to haunt the already lost souls
What more could be lost?
A sea of wonder lies ahead

Was time running out too fast?
Yet in this still moment
It lasts forever
The fear that will never leave

The heart hurts what the eyes could see
No trembling but only agony
Does the sun have to hide all the time
When all of the fears come out

The everlasting blankets of the sky
Seem to be blinded by the sorrows of the night
For what pains inside
Could not never be healed from the out

Three hundred sixty five days has passed
Still under the tree I wait
I would no more dare to ask
To myself that is fading away

When did the sky turn gray?
Or are my eyes simply losing it
A memory of each day
Slowly weakens a heartbeat

This is a battle
And it is your final last call
As to pieces I shatter
can you make it... before I fall

The night is young when I first saw him.
The roaring wind blinded my sight yet I could still picture his shadow.
What can I do to avoid this feeling?
What can I do to hide my emotions?
This is wrong yet I can not heed to what is right.
His love stalks my heart like it has none of its own.
His breath so cold I could feel it down my spine.
His lips red as apple is too hard to resist.
His sparkling blue eyes hypnotize my soul. T
he warmth of his body devours my whole being.
What can I do to take away this passion?
What can I do to not love him even when each breath of his is my life?
I cannot pull myself away from him.
What is this love that I’ve never felt before?
Who is he to make me want him badly?
I am losing my sanity each time I feel his touch though I feel complete happiness.
He has become my obsession, one that I cannot live without.
This forbidden love is killing me slowly.
Could a woman want a man so much in her life?
Is she willing to give up everything for a him?
Am I willing to lose it all for a love I am not sure of the worth?
How can this love be such enigmatic?
Why do I feel this blissful pain?
The night is young when I saw him.
The roaring wind blinded my sight yet my heart knew where to find him.
A love so wrong…
This love full of pain…
Where can it lead?
When my heart shatters… will he be there to save it?

My soul finds rest in his arms
Just like how the breeze of the air calms
I knew it from the start
One day we will be apart
I want to refuse you
But my heart doesn't want to
Oh how my heart suffers
The pain no one can cover
You had to go alone
For where you're going is not my home
Will I ever again see your face?
Will I ever again feel your embrace?
Will you ever come back?
Will someone ever contain my lack?
My only wish is for you not to forget me
For one day I believe, together we'll be free.