you push me
to the heights
lift me
from the depths

beautiful you
how powerful you make me feel
how loved
and how special

you are
my entitlement
ownership
spread from my heart
connections
i cannot control
future
inevitable

you're like..
the opposite of love
in human form

i loathe
pity
and weakness

(you know this)

they threaten my peace
they counter my core

you are both

you are nothing

you are the me
that i fear

i earned
my
independence

i will
protect this
at all costs

so when
you threaten this

freedom

you
no longer
exist
to
me

i hate you
for how you make me feel
and for
how you
don’t see me
at all

sometimes
when i look back to you
i am astonished
with how your eyes
meet mine
paralyze me
with this look
that words cannot describe

with every whispered word
every glance

you transform me

i am watching myself
bloom

i am
your flower

the invitation

will always
show
what
you
welcomed
openly

...
that which
you

now

deny
so
vehemently

on your last day
the sun was shining
and big white clouds ran across the sky

someone held you tight
and told you, "i love you"
admired you
and cherished you

on your last day
all of your love poured out

you inspired
and you soared
you lived
and you died

your love remains
always

recently
you have been giving me
a look
that so deeply
resonates
and tells me
truly
that
i don't know you
anymore

your love
is my reset button

what does
your love look like?

i suspect
you don't
even know

but
don't you want to?

choices
building
contradictions
to
your
heart

you stopped
short of the line

that i desperately wanted
you to cross

i'll still
wait
a little longer

my three loves

you all indulge

my past
my present
and
my future

you each
fill
a different
piece of my heart

yet
you each
consume
all of
me

not the me
who
is no longer
me

i love you
all
equally