Theia Gwen

Theia Gwen Mar 2014

Throw me an ember
My smoking friend
And I'll take it with me
When my life ends
I'll join Jack
Forever looking for a place
Searching for where I belong,
For a familiar face
I've been longing for sleep
My entire life
But even in death
Peace will never arrive
I don't belong in heaven or hell
And everywhere I see signs
Because I don't want to be alone
But everything's occupied
One foot in front of the other
Is how I make it by
An outsider forever
With only an ember and a lullaby

Inspired by I Will Follow You Into The Dark by Death Cab For Cutie.

Theia Gwen Mar 2014

Kissing In A Mall

Plastic plants,
Artificial light,
Photoshopped models,
And on this night
Sitting expectantly and nervous
This scene looks nothing like the movies
Our love is real but so is our fear
Hoping everything goes smoothly
Sitting as close as possible,
An autotuned song playing through our ordeal
Surrounded by fake things
Your lips on mine is the only thing real

Theia Gwen Mar 2014

Taking It Slow

Our love is like
Freezing water
We both want to jump in
But we don't want to go
Too fast or mess up
And we don't know how to swim
So we'll just hold each other
And wade in the shallow end

My boyfriend and I had our first kisses yesterday which was terrifying for both of us and before we did it, he compared it to jumping in freezing water and I liked that.

Theia Gwen Mar 2014

Two Socially Awkward Teenagers Dating

Mint gum,
Sweaty palms,
Holding hands,
Am I doing this wrong?

Easy laughs,
Your green eyes,
Flirting's hard
I feel like i'll die

5 months
And we're still lost
Our first kisses
Your lips are soft

Theia Gwen Mar 2014

Variables Of My First Kiss

I don't care where
Or how,
Or when,
Nor what,
Nor why
The question to me is who
The only variable of my first kiss
I care about is that the lips I kiss belong to you

So I'm going out with my boyfriend today and apparently he told one of my friends he was going to try to kiss me so kinda freaking out.

Theia Gwen Mar 2014

2AM You

It's impossible to know a person
Really, truly know them
Until you have a conversation at 2AM
Right before you fall asleep
The most human you can be,
There's no wrong or right
Just words filling the silence
Let me see your insecurities,
Your dreams,
Tell me things about you
That I wouldn't know
Remind me I'm not the only person
With problems and that
No one's exempt from suffering
I want to hear it all
Your heart and mind
There's no better time
For a lobotomy
No better time
To not be alone
I'm glad we got to philosophize
Because you don't really, truly
Know someone
Until you converse at 2AM
And it was a pleasure to meet
2AM you

At a sleepover me and my friend stayed up till 2 and we just talked and it was really nice.

Theia Gwen Mar 2014

Bullets

There will come a day
When you think of me
And think about what was us
And you'll think,
"I sure dodged a bullet"
The day you think that,
Is the day I put one
Through my brain