The words are right there, on the tip my tongue,
but I can't get them out  and I'm coming undone,
if I take chance, perhaps she'll feel that way too,
and I will whisper the words I love you.

You know what?
I can't believe my luck, 'cause it's getting late
and I'm talking to her and everything is great
and we're laughing.

And it never even occurred to me,
but maybe this is how things should be.

So far away,
and it's been such a while,
but I can't but smile,
I could do this.

It's not what I wanted but it's not so bad
and for the first time in a while I am actually glad.

Waves of sleep roll over me
Take me from the world I see
Sleep slowly steals me away
From your words upon this day
Oh my love, I hate to go
I don't want to sleep, just so you know
I love you now, and will tomorrow
and leaving you, fills me with sorrow
but know I do not go by choice
Tiredness steals me from your voice

Now as all the scars start to fade
I wonder will the memories made?
I liked that weekend, at the time
'cause I was happy and she was mine.
But now I regret it, for one big reason
and doing it again, would feel like treason
I held her hand, I tasted her lips
I put my arms around her hips
Yet now there's something I want more
Because the prettiest girl I ever saw
Isn't the one who's hand I was holding
but the one who's glare was most scolding.

This place may be harsh and cruel but it will make you strong
You're one of us now, a survivor, here's where you shall belong.
Just don't take this for grated,  because the world hates you
But here with us, you have a place, we know you can pull though.

Hidden deep inside your calm façade
Is a spirit to be awed.
'Cause you're one of us now brother
In this place, just like no other.

It's cold is dreary and it *****
But here we don't give no *****.
So take up yet another fight
and drink deep into the night.

You have her, with her gorgeous smile
all I have, is denial.
You have her, with her enticing laugh
I haven't a heart, not even a half.
You have her, with her angelic voice
I haven't even got a choice.
You have her, she's perfect, it's true
and she doesn't want me, cause she's got you.
So she's left me, with a terrible curse
because she still inspires, my poetic verse.
You have her, so ****, so hot
and me? Well poetry is all I've got.

It's like I can't write poems about you
No matter how much I want to

My trail of thought goes, eyes, eyes, what rhymes with eyes?
You have pretty eyes, I like your eyes. And so the poem dies
Or I'll be writing a line about your hair, your perfect hair
And my brain just stops working, it just isn't fair!

I thought 'perhaps she's someone I'd like to know'
and my god, I nearly let my secrets show.
I nearly told her how my nights full
of analogies of the ocean's pull,
and how her eyes shine perfectly bright,
and she looked so good under the party light,
but I retain my posture, and don't let her in,
because last time I shared a poem, I certainly did not win.

You're gone again, I should stop trying.
I should speed up, this slow, slow dying.
When you came back, I let myself care,
and was happy a moment, an occurrence so rare,
yet you are gone, and it doesn't matter.
I've no longer a heart, for your absence to shatter.

We're not something, that I regret,
though now I feel, my heart's beset,
every poem was still, so perfect, so true,
though just like, each 'I love you'.

I don't regret us, it was worth the pain,
and given a chance, I'd do it again.

I don't know how to word the way you make me feel.
But it's been so long, yet I still care, so clearly it is real.
But your feelings are a mystery, a cypher I can't read.
I'm getting such mixed signals, from each word and thought and deed.

******* it Atlas, let it go,
you don't have to hold it, don't you know?
******* it Icarus, calm down,
if you fly too high you'll only drown.
******* it Sisyphus, you'll never win
when will you learn not begin?
These were lessons learned so long ago,
there were things I was supposed to know,
but I didn't pay them any heed,
and so I lost the one thing I need.

And by now, you see, I think,
that you've pushed me to the brink,
of how much I can resist,
and yet you still, my dear, insist,
on being so very cute,
causing feelings I can't refute,
and so perhaps to you I'll say,
the way I feel...one day.

I'm not living for me any more
Not for the reasons I was living before
I'm only keep living, cause she'll cry if I don't
But part of me's awaiting, the day when she won't
So I can leave this world behind
and end the pain that's clouding my mind.

Did you miss me my dear, did you miss my voice?
I thought about it my dear, and this is my choice.
You here, in my arms, forever and more,
Because it's you, my dear, who I adore.
I need to apologize, for making you wait,
So little dragon, you still keen for that date?

Today was perfect, what more can I say?
I wish we could do that, every day.
You smile was beautiful, your hair perfect
and I was so nervous, you have that effect.
Your lips are amazing, they tasted so sweet
You say you love me more? That'd be quite a feat.

Cause here I am writing poems, and awaiting a chance
To see you again even just at a glance

Oh New Years Eve, what a perfect kiss,
with a girl that I've now come to miss,
I really do hope you're doing well,
though the pain of your absence is hurting like hell,
if you'd only reply, just one more time,
I'd tell of you of how, I wish you were mine.

I remember I could see,
that you were meant to be with me
But now all I see is blood.
We were gonna be,
Forever oh you see,
But now I'm not enough.
You were oh so lovely,
When you used to love me
But now it's all so ******

Staring deep, into the fire, as it dies,
I've come to see, that it all was lies.
But now I forget your once perfect voice,
That's what you want, and it was your choice.
But the beat of your heart, pulsing with haste,
Lying in my arms, as they wrapped round your waist.  
That memory shall take longer, much longer, to die,
Too bad even that memory, was naught but a lie.

Her smile's warm like a roaring fire
Her voice is soft like the wind through the trees
Her beauty is endless like the sea's

My heart is broken like shattered glass
My head is screeching like metal across stone
My soul is fading like bad memories

My smile, my happiness, it's all a bluff
We know I was never good enough
Never worth a moment of anyone's time
My life is as pointless as this stupid rhyme
I get it now, I can finally see.
There's always someone better than me.
What good am I? I have no worth
I do no good, being here on earth.
My life is pointless, a waste of time
Like everything I've done, including this rhyme

Radiant, beautiful, orbs of grey,
one look infinitely, brightened my day.
Strands of red-gold, falling flawlessly
my mind dreaming, wildly, lawlessly.
A sound I hadn't heard in too long,
that confused my heart, spawning this song.

A beautiful verb, now only past tense,
Felt from that day, to all the years hence,
From beautiful voice, I held it so true,
But tell me just when, was it past tense to you?
We promised the moment, it happened we'd say,
But I haven't yet, and you didn't that day,
Sometimes conversations, they still feel like home,
Like you did that day, by the sand and the foam.
This poems not finished, no it doesn't feel done,
But as I think of a title, past tense's not the one

I miss the way you said my name
I miss loving you and you feeling the same
I miss that loving, lustful look in your eyes
I miss how around how around time always flies
I miss how every moment with you made want a million more
I miss looking at you, you're the most beautiful thing I ever saw
I miss you, because I'm still in love
and you're still an angel, belonging above

A dragon needs a princess, but an angel needs a demon.
This isn't a choice, I was never a freeman.
I've chosen her some countless times and will some countless more.
I'm already ready to accept, what the universe has in store.
But please don't be sad, for what could have been.
Please still believe, all that you've seen.
Go have fun, but without me.
We'll all be fine, just wait and see.

Your beauty is something to which words can't compare
I love you more that anything, as I trust you're aware
You're more perfect than I could ever describe
I'll love you forever, this feeling won't subside
You're my perfect little angel, you
I'll love you no matter what you do.

And my heart screams 'leave me alone'
but a smile protrudes my mask of stone.
Everything hurts, beyond belief
but it's the happiest, kind of relief.
And that is the paradox you,
I don't want to talk, yet I love to.

I rip the ******* veins, right out of my ******* wrists,
and I want to punch the wall, until so broken are my fists,
I ****** up and now I have no idea just what to do,
these poems are so pointless, now they're not being read by you;

Oh dear sweetheart, I played you for a fool.
Did you really think I cared? I didn't care at all
I merely cried those tears in hopes of manipulation
You were so **** and so I faked my devastation

You'll never know how many poems you've inspired,
or how many night on which, you cross my mine when I'm tired.
You'll never know how much I care right now,
because I really do want to explain, but I've just no idea on how.

I hope he compares her eyes to endless stormy seas,
Because I regret writing poems that were anything like these.
I wish I'd never lost any sleep looking for the words,
So I hope he compares her voice to the song of birds.
But I hope he knows poems aren't enough,
She never deserved any of this stuff.
I never loved her, never will,
But I wish her the best even still.

One day you will wake and realize she's all you ever wanted
And she'll be in someone else's arms that happy smile on her face
You'll be sitting where you sat with her and you'll be feeling haunted
And he will tell her "I love you" and her heart will start to race.

You'll remember how her lips taste and want another kiss
Another kiss where the world slows down and she's all you think about
But you can't because her lips aren't yours they're his
And her love that you once had, you'll now have to live without

My dear little angel, I  love you,
and know I now, you love me too,
and every moment, was worth it for,
now I've got my, forever more.

Never has, such love been felt,
your every word, makes my heart melt,
we've always been waiting, but oh so soon
the wait will be over, and our love can bloom.

Perfection, beauty and lips so sweet
The most perfect girl, I ever did meet
You my dear, my perfect sweetheart
You're sheer perfection a true work of art.

Do you remember...
Oh of course you don't,
That'd be a wasted anecdote.

The deep dark red, bleed onto back,
I know she's never, coming back.
I thought we agreed, to leave it alone,
so that I don't want to cut down to bone,
I thought that you might understand,
giving up's not going, quite as planned

So bitter-sweet is solitude
'Cause why on earth would I need you?
I'm perfectly happy here by myself.

Except when it gets it dark and it gets cold
When I'm alone, sitting on my bed
and I miss the way my hands fit perfectly in yours

So bitter-sweet is solitude
Because I'm better now I'm without you
But it is still solitude, and I am still alone.

I miss you, I love you, no I don't, I hate you
I miss the memories, not the person
but the happiness, the company.

If just for a moment, I knew how you felt,
then maybe I could play, the cards I've been dealt.
But as things stand, I don't get the game,
everything's different, but each night's the same

I see you in the ocean, as I stare out at sea,
and miss you when I sit, where you once sat with me.
When I awake from a nightmare, with my heart all a'race,
the one sight I wish for, is your beautiful face.
I miss your laugh when I think of, jokes I wish I could tell,
and I miss your gentle sweetness, when my life feels like hell.
I miss my little angel, when I stare at the rain,
I miss you so much, that my heart fills with pain.
I miss your perfect hair, as I watch the flames dance,
and I miss that first night, when we took that first chance.
But our story's not over, our story's not done,
I might miss you now, but I know you're the one.

If I get my wish, and things go right
This shall be my final night.
Should this be it, my last goodbye
Please my dear, please don't cry

I was never any good at life
Now is the time, end my strife
I never wanted to hurt you
But this all, that I can do

So I hope this is it, my last goodbye
But please my love, please don't cry

I know I won the battle, I know I won the war,
but I lost what it was, that I was fighting for,
It isn't coming back, for it is too far gone,
I'm gonna have to play, with the cards that I have drawn,
Such a hollow victory, I'm not having fun
What's the point in winning, if you lose everyone?

I miss being with you, more than a flower misses the sun while buried under a foot of snow. I also miss your lips, you more than the desert misses rain. I miss the feeling of your hand in mine, more than the new moon misses the sun's light. I miss you, more than any words could ever express, because I miss you more than anything.

It's kind of sad to think, that it's been a whole **** year,
and I still listen to this song, as the clock reads 4am,
and down my cheek still slides, a single lonely tear.

And I'm still sat here missing you,
and I still don't know what to do,
and I still tearfully miss,
that last so haunting kiss.

Still you're out there having fun,
or more likely asleep,
I'll sleep with the rising sun,
because in love I'm far too deep.

I don't exist to the girl I love
Yet she's still the one I'm dreaming of
She won't read poems, she doesn't think I'm writing
about how every day's a struggle, and it's for her I'm fighting
But one day I'll lose, and I won't me missed
and on that day, I won't exist

Broken promises, shattered dreams
I try to muffle, heartbroken screams

So I say hellopoetry
and goodbye to my sanity
another night writing of you
and you know, I don't want to

Everyone seems to notice something has changed
My icy temperament has been exchanged.
They all know they all know something is new
But none of them know it has to do with you.
Because for now I am smiling and I am nice
Because I don't have to think twice
About if you you love me
Or if we will ever be.

I can't unbreak your heart, I can't undo the pain
But in my arms it'll never be broken again

"No, Cassius, for the eye sees not itself
But by reflection, by some other things."

Maybe that is why she won't believe the things I say
Doesn't agree she's perfect in every way.
She say's she not perfect, beautiful or amazing
But she doesn't know it's her I'm craving.
She only see's a pale reflection of her true self
in the imperfection of those like myself
But she is more perfect than anyone
If beauty were stars she'd be the sun.
If only she knew, just how I see her
So perfect she makes everything else a blur.
Because when I look at her she's all I can see
And I know she's as beautiful, as beauty can be.

I would give my life, I would give my soul
to just for a moment, once again feel whole.
Where went the time for us? I still got the scars,
I guess I wasted it, matching words to bars.
I want another moment, or hour, or day
to be happy, free and with you without life in the way.
But what I want doesn't matter, what I want I can't get,
so I'll be stuck with these feelings for a while yet.