I know the color of your flesh but not the color of your desires

Everything good about them starts to hurt,
doesn't it?

Once you begin to realize that
while you were
   f
         a
                 l
            l
           ­      i
             n
                  g
They were just biding time.

While you were running towards them,
they were searching for the exit.

When you were m_ ss _ng them,
they were looking for better people to see
better places to be.

When you were feeling C0nFus3d,
their friends were laughing with them - at your expen$e.

While you were falling     a p a r  t

 high,
   they were getting             not feeling a thing.

While you were giving them the benefit of the doubt,
they were doubting you had any benefits.

While you were trying to
p  
          a   t
                      c  #
 things up,

They were trying to let you   d
                                                    o
          ­                                           w
                                                               ­ n  easy.

All of the good things become
                   rui
           ne
  d

How lovely they made you feel

Before doesn't matter.

You were  d      r        a       g     g    i      n    g   out
what they wanted to come to an
end...

Now all that you have left are the memories
             a-t-t-a-c-h-e-d   to the
p \ in that comes

After.



©Kateland Dwyer
*1/5/2017

You never truly know loss,
Or how much tragedy weighs,
How it makes feel like you're under water,
And to breathe, your lungs just won't obey.

You were so small, so hidden in the universe,
And suddenly your existence is so massive,
You never know until you're hit,
That the force of it all makes you come crashing.

And every scattered piece is calling for the other,
And everyone is insistingly trying to help,
But the water level rises to your ears,
And every sound that comes close is always repelled.

You never truly know loss,
How it spreads like cancer inside your being,
You never know until you're a core of something that used to be,
And there's nothing more of you worth seeing.

You never know...
All those second hand tears never prepare you,
For when your lungs are filled with water,
And it feels like there's no sun to look up to.

Lure me into the depths of the sea
Let me see the blood that will shimer in the waters.
Tempt me to drown. Drown forever.
I don't see the hope for the world!
I don't see lights! So dark!
If only if someone would unblind me...
If only I could see the lights...
UNBLIND ME FROM THIS CLOTH THAT COVERS MY EYE
Despair! Despair!
Oh...
Lure me into the depths of the sea...
Let me see the blood...
Me drowning...
Forever!....