Having a mind like mine means you are constantly looking for the next thing even before you finish whats already started.
                I'm always wondering whats next.
         Mentally never slowing down,
                                Physically never stopping to smell the roses.
I'm not complaining, I like myself for the most part.
I love my impulsive decisions and choices.
I adore the random **** that pops in my mind, and when people ask
"where'd that come from?"
I love responding with "I'm not too sure"
Because who really knows where the thoughts we get come from, or how we get those random thoughts.
I like surprising people too, unknowingly shocking them with unique thoughts and knowledge that they never seen coming.


You know what else?
Most days uncertainty scares the **** out of me,
but other days
it ignites something in me.


s.j.b

My pencil is broken,
But I find myself a pen, and keep writing.
My faith has been shattered,
But I still love you.
Do you think its okay to quit?
When is it acceptable to put the pen down?
                        "Quitters never accomplish anything"
(someone once told me this)
Now that i'm older, i realize its okay to quit,
You don't have to look down on yourself for putting something down that once gave you joy but now gives you endless sorrow.
its okay,
New beginnings don't come without quitting something else.

All I can smell is rain
All I can see is the sun creeping through the dark clouds
My favorite place to be is my car, the rain hits the sunroof, rolls down the windshield,
It gives me this soothing bliss that only rain can give you.
That sense of reality, you feel connected with mother nature.

I'm sitting in my car, Engine off, music off, thoughts are turned off as well.
Who needs anything when you have the sound of rain to ease your mind?
Thinking more and more about it,
your soul reminds me of a rainy day.
So calming, so peaceful;
Dark and grey, yet so beautifully lit up.
You are my rainy days, and I can dig it.

The mornings are so much smoother than the afternoons and nights

you wake up, have nothing negative on your mind.
Make your coffee and prepare for the day ahead of you.
That's where it gets tricky for me, i'm so hopeful in the mornings;
by the afternoon i'm already disappointed in myself.
it doesn't take much to upset me
i need to learn to let things go,
let it roll off my shoulders.

It's just so hard.

My compassion was self taught
I was raised with none.


*s.mndi