i crave touch and affection
as any human does
but i am reserved, an observer, an introvert
i am content to spend an entire day cuddled up
with someone who feels the same way i do
on a rainy day like today
there is nothing more i want
than to feel
to feel alive
to feel loved
to feel connected
to not feel alone

Don't make me initiate.

Seconds leading up to rushing river beds where they stand adjacent

Hands held out whispering
"Don't worry, don't worry"
But I stumble
I let the fast paced movement of molecules rushing west, east.

On an atomic level I swore you were beneath me

My human instinct to just breathe to plummet
To scratch the itch
Where you stung
The side of my hips
I ached for you
I waited days
Left the lights on
Water sat trembling

My current rippling the way
The universe never seems to do what I ask

Gravity sending you farther and farther
While I sit like a magnet
Rumble in my own state
The days slur on
sun jumps
Catching glimpses of trees through the crack in the window
Forgot the necessity to eat
My ribs curl inward and squeeze.
Sheets drape
Can they be you if I close my eyes tightly?

Will they ever stop echoing the same melancholy?

Flicking light in sky
Are angels watching telly
On this lonely night

we are not living
we are surviving
everyday

facing new problems
and overcoming obstacles
or hitting all time lows
and crumbling to rock bottom

we are all
just surviving
for just as long
as we can

s.s

wanted to live a quiet life
with the beat of your heart
for companionship
that little chest dweller
the one you can hear
beating, if you live real quiet.

When I die
bury me in tattered robes
beneath the ground from which my tulips shall grow

When I die
feel neither pain nor anguish
but in a lilac hue feel peace and spirituality

When I die
bathe me in milk and marigold petals
caress my skin with tender hands

When I die
perform not a religious dispute
but a colourful celebration of a life fully lived

and When I die
share my works of art
my poems and portraits
my thoughts and visions
everything that I am
everything that I was
and everything that I dreamt to be

T.B
10/08/16

I believe that we do everything for emotion.
We risk for excitement,
dance for fun,
and for happiness we can smile at the sun.

I apply makeup for joy,
sing for any feeling of my choice,
own up to rid myself of guilt,
and for sadness, I hate the way I was built.

I watch sad videos to feel empathy,
I draw for peace of mind,
I listen to Dodie for ALL the emotions.
But right now, I feel nothing...

With this twisted, little constable you call a friend,
You scatter fro to find the end,
With open spaces left to fill,
Imaginative canvas spills,
Upon the ground in such a way,
To satiate the calming sway of evergreens and frozen pines,
Providing to your humble shrine,
A gift of immortality,
Stripped of its virility,
'Till seven days pass along the channels of your mind,
You'll weep for such affinity...