the scattered tapping of hail
guest music from the skies
arrives and is gone in a minuet of showers
re-groups and the music starts playing
once again in hearts frozen solid

and I was born to run and hide
until that fateful day
I stood and fought and the fighting
has never stopped
a fate-full day of life

My world is cut in silence
The rain is red
All stories told.
Our bodies roamed just like a virus
In denial
Of our true home.
This sickening betrayal
Left a monster
In my place.
The love I gave entirely
Lead only
To my disgrace.

**** "romance"
**** flowers
**** the minutes
**** the hours
**** the greedy
**** the smug
**** the lonely
**** the loved
**** the gorgeous
**** the ugly
You never meant
that much to me
**** Cupid
**** lust
**** fakery
**** trust
**** Hallmark
**** affection
**** guilt
**** expectation
**** devotion
**** foreplay
But most of all —
**** VALENTINE'S DAY

Nights are heartless
The stars are dying
My will,
My breath
Is running out.
I lost my life
In your dark woods.
Howling,
Your love slew me.
The cold unknown
Cut without mercy.
Now I see only one-way streets.
Useless friendships
Waving me goodbye.

I am gone.
Adrift thru cold dead air,
Lost in the horizon.
There's no comfort,
No means of adaptation.
Only this void.
          this loveless space.
Out here I am forgetting you —
Slowly,
As my oxygen depletes.

In your love,

I knew redemption.
I found trust,
A wealth of beauty in dark glories.
I saw stars
under heartless skies.
Alpha and Omega.
Endless.
I saw life incandescent,
A world beyond my own.

In your love,

I gained
and lost everything.