Out of body
in my element
too far to reach
give me less
let me rest

complaining
so restraining
illuminating
how you put it on

the sun goes down
here they come
ill never learn
we all burn

maybe that's the key
feeling nothing
its ecstasy

what do you do
when you know
just how far
it can go

can't keep going on
pretending, defending
in some sense
of relief
can't let go

only some
really grow

empty my mind
too much time
they all call it ******

hold your space
know your place
i see you
every time
tore me in two
running from you

where do i go?
nobody knows
drifting, i float
mind only explodes

dip those toes
in streams of unknown
wade through dreams
a peek of unseen
dust off the craze
walk into the maze
of secrets untold
a life will unfold
unforgotten it's luck
so **** it all up
then **** it back together
leave it for divine
fall back into time
spirits high, spirits low
binary divide
two lives intertwined
a master of none
what will become?
hold onto unknown
and find yourself a home
you are never, never alone

I found me standing all alone
face of stone
bone exposed
spirit cried to dream again
mind wired to die pretend

fickle eyes, fickle lies
i'll hit this one home
i'm not surprised
it's not mine
a soldier on their own

your demise
will shine this time
taught me to lie
taught me to whine
taught me to always
waste my time

you've crossed my line
i think it's a sign
you'll set me on fire
again, you're a liar
but to my surprise
i'll always rise

the tale is old
or so it seems
the life you've lived
the life you've grieved

when i was just a little girl
my mother was my whole **** world
she used to get me on one knee
she used to love to sing to me
mother knows best
don't stray from the nest
it's you i adore
see you're not like the rest

and from that tune
our souls enmeshed
and from that tune
a plague infests
the plague of the caged
I was strained to be strayed
i was layed in my grave

fickle smile, you ******* child
don't test me with your words
i've flown away
from chains of hate
i've grieved the days
a fresh clean slate

can never unsee
what you did to me
but it's true that i have learned
from a rotten egg
from a festered nest
i fly away a free bird

i am a gardener of souls
i plant seeds wherever i go
i feed those in hunger
i water those in thirst

i am a gardener of souls
i weave sweet life with death
and spirits bloom and bend
from the souls that i do tend

i am a gardener of souls
i walk through grasses of joy
and when i grow old
as my plants have foretold

ill lay embroiled with the soil
as my learnings they uncoil

you see i am a gardener of life
i invest in love and light
my food i eat is laughter
my air i breathe is delight.

i am a gardener of souls
and what i sow i reap
you see-i listened to a melody
from trees who only teach.

i am a gardener of souls
and i rake the leaves
and they bleed secrets
that nobody would believe.

but i’ve seen what ive seen
and i know what i know
no rain no flowers
no pain no powers
that’s how this story goes

and those up in their towers
the gardens of cowards
the fall
is far
below

A hurricane of thoughts descends
what are we left with?
the road ahead it twists and bends
try throw it all on them
try and be a girl again

the layers you dwell on
the layers you deny
why do we even try?
climbing down the mountain you've claimed
such a pity. such a shame
a bad soul today
next thing you're saved

clean out that brain
go light it aflame
cause the truth its close to you
but your eyes are shut
there's answers within
but somehow you've forgot

go on then
throw it all away
show em how much
you can **** up in a day

Simmer down, simmer down
the lights gone from this town
what happened to the trees?
are we ever truly free?
are we ever truly seen?
simmer down, simmer down
same is sane in this town

we make our beds
we call them friends
we turn our heads
so we all look the same
a game that never ends
a game that's all pretend
same is sane, i'll say it again

so simmer down, simmer down
or **** your mind, join the hive
and play the game, and take their crown
but we soldiers march in unity
fighting for us all to drown
fighting for another day
another day, so we can fake
there's no light, it's take, take, take
open your eyes! for ***** sake

don't you want to feel alive?
instead of just survive?
but no
close your eyes, close your mind
don't be such a fool
you're acting like a clown
simmer down, simmer down
same in sane, in this town.

What a bland world
in which i now exist
no longer does he want me
no longer is there need

Oh but what a free world
in which i now exist
no longer do i wonder
much stronger, i persist

Walk in
head high
eyes wide
the first bridge

enter the realm
the second
the heart
and within
stay clear

there is a third
enter the veins
and see the small things sprout
across the final one
a drop of change
and a piece of you stays
that is the trade

go back
no slack
go do it again
but they are not the same
with fear in the heart
go do it again

Can we find again
what's never been found
it's all in your head
make them believe
make them fend

relinquished your power
what are the odds?
the king's lost his crown
the queen's lost her king
don't you drink too much
or you will drown

that's right
that's right
alright
run again
turn their heads
make your bed
and you all look the same

who'd have thought?
I guess it's a lesson learnt
if you play with fire
then you will burn

here they go again
those worries seem so small
the thought of losing
take it away
taken away
lost again
where are the trees?
where are my friends?

goosebumps have died
whose side are you on?
maybe we can hide
i'm gonna hold on

mum's crying
you're crying
the circus is on fire
split down the middle
it's not a clean cut

fill my cup
clean my wounds
but
i am not the same
give me your heart
and i will run again

go on then, have a drink
remember how you used to think
remember how you used to ride
flying high in your fantasy
screaming, seemingly believing
'there's no way out for me'
in this sense you think you're free
on that road it's an easy dream
see the path to hell feels like heaven
that's if you want to die at twenty-seven
to love yourself an impossible feat
cause why would you want to risk it all?
why would you want to stumble and fall?
you've gotta run, you've gotta hide
you are just trying to ******* survive
give you a break it's no big deal
you don't even know whats real
smoke the days away
drink the pain away
but when will you learn
that the devils locked you in his cell
cause the road to heaven feels like hell

a crazy mother forgot
don't slap you in the face
shake your hand
rearrange the farce
remanded to that place
a foreign hole
godforsaken plains
fall from the plateau
and make yourself a home
scrape the dust
clean out your soul
and cry
let the water fall
rage steeped in love
drink from the cup
taste of days gone by
flavour of twisted lies
plant your seeds of hope
fix your gaze ahead
to the void of the unknown
hold your space
know your place
and do not forget
your are not
what you think you are