You're skin and skin and skin-soft silky pale skin- and green eyes and red cheeks and sometimes I think I'm not enough for you because your hair is pink and my mom won't even let me have an ear piercing and you play in a band and I get yelled at for listening to music to loud. I just ******* hate that we are more alike than you think but you'll never know I could be the one for you because I'm too ******* afraid to go against the rules.

-Your palms
-Your lips
-Your eyes
-Your smile
-Your laugh
-Your voice
-Your fingers
-Your nose
-Your ******* everything

You'd think
In a world of 6 billion,
Living in a city if 300,000
I would have more to do.
But here I am
Missing you.

I know you've got
Friends and plans and a full life.
What do I have?
Just loneliness and a need to see you.
I know we will spend time
Together, and time apart.
I just wish it was
More of the latter
And almost none of the former.

But I know you need your life
And I have to create mine.
But I've isolated myself
In my mind

I'm trapped in my own thoughts.
I wish you knew this solitude

Oh I’m killin myself
But I’m doin it slow
Cuz i like to get high
And i like to feel low

And I’m fallin in love
But she’s running away
Now I’m falling apart
I'm ****** falling apart

Oh when did it start
Oh what can I do
Im so stuck in the old
and I’m begging for news

And Im begging for you
to just stay
Oh please don't go away

Oh lord, wouldn’t grandma be proud
to see her powder faced chowder headed grandson now
n I said oh lord, oh, wouldn’t grandad rejoice
to see his little baby grandson spewing land mines with his voice
Oh Lord, wouldn't grandma be proud?
Oh Lord, Wouldn't grandad laugh out loud?

Oh I’m killin myself
But its taking too long
Cuz I done run out
my mind is almost gone

And though I just woke up
The sun is setting
I don’t feel like doing nothing but
Resting where my nest is

But won’t you please sing along
To make me feel ok
These rhymes are all i got
To distract from the pain

In plain view I stand
Rib cage ajar
Come dive inside
You can live in my heart

Oh lord, wouldn’t grandma be proud
to see her powder faced chowder headed grandson now
n I said oh lord, oh, wouldn’t grandad rejoice
to see his little baby grandson spewing land mines with his voice
Oh Lord, wouldn't grandma be proud?
Oh Lord, Wouldn't grandad laugh out loud?

Running
Trying to move faster
To get away.
To put distance in between
Me and you.

Trying with all my might
To not be there anymore.
Legs pumping
Arms moving
Sweat dripping
I just want to get away.

But you're everywhere
Every place I look.
In everything I do.
In all the parts of my life.
And the horrible thing is

You can only run so fast in your head.

gasping
on the brink of death
and i didn’t give a ****
you forced oxygen into my soul
you gave me a reason for living
you didn’t care
that i wanted to die
you justified my existence
you fought me
and fought me
until i realized
i can breathe on my own
there’s plenty of reasons for life
(you were one)

You're into drugs and im into you
maybe one day I can become
something you're addicted to.

but, baby...
why are you so insecure?
we've been through this
so
many
times.
the same debate
over and over again.
I believe you when you tell me
so...
why can't you do the same?
I know you're tired.
I know you hate lies.
but darlin, I'm no ordinary person.
I promise I'm telling the truth when I say,
"you're so beautiful."
I just don't understand.
I wish you would believe me.