In a way this sort of feels like school.
One moment we're curiously writing and passing notes to each other.
The next we're caught and sent off to detention.
I never knew which box you checked.
Yes.
No.
Maybe kinda sort of.

There's a lesson to be learned from all of this.
Which one I am really not sure.
I wasn't paying attention.
Instead of studying.
Here I am writing another note.
It never really occurred to me.
That while the teacher is teaching.
Filling us with what passes the time.
Life happens behind his back.

The context of how competitive everything is.
In retrospect.
What did you get for number 2.
A.
B.
Or C

Which answer dictates how fast he turns around.
One day soon we'll both know

I can't say I missed you,
but I'm glad you're back half of the time.
In those moments when your lips tense
in focus on a new ****** mystery novel,
you're convinced you know the killer
and I'm convinced you'll **** me in the night,
so we lie awake, side by side.
A shared cold so we're sniffling
I was sick but we couldn't help kissing
I'm beyond infatuated,
have always been emotional,
but with you I really lose my mind.

Yes i Will


Don't know what your thinking any more
   about
How come i see you in my bedroom yesterday
   at night
This mind is but a figment of the
   never more
The car drives by the camera
   1963
  
I was not here until so timeless
   recently
Why do i think i own the universe
   again
Saw you in my bedroom twice again
   last night
You were not there i know a ghost in
   darkest light
  
  
If i could touch you one more time i would
   my love
The ecstasy the fantasy is but a dream
   my love    
My future is a bookmark on this page
   of life
Never been to heaven hell just seems
   so wrong
  
Called you by your name last night in bed
   alone
A life of happiness is just a life
   of strife
Knew eternity a time ago
   yes i did
Give it up for one more day with you
   yes i will

I knew you would love each other
More than we loved each other
When I said yes,
But I still said yes
Because I loved you
More than I have ever loved another

They're scared
You know who
It's the monsters
This is true

Watch them suffer
Smile more
They deserve it
Watch blood pour

Don't be scared
It's their fault
There was peace
We were taught

It is gone
Yes it is
They took it
They are wrong

So they burn
Like they should
No one lives
There's no good

Handsome, young lover
proposed, quickly she said,"Yes!"
Was three months pregnant.

why,
why did you force me.
why did you take my,
innocence.
stole me.
now, I feel used.
abused.
why,
why did you choose me.
why couldn't you except,
"no."
you turn my words into a broken,
"..yes.."
leaving me with nothing left,
to say but,
why.

(l.j.t.)

Sometimes I stop and wonder what it would be like if I wasn't here
Sometimes I think if I'm pretty enough?
If I'm thin enough?
If I will ever be popular?
I say to myself "Would life be better without me?"
Some voices in my head say yes
Others say no
Which voice do you think I listened to?
Well if I'm telling you this, it's obvious that I stayed
I'm glad I stayed