the music is starting
they said

the music is starting!
they said

and start it did.

the sound cascading like rivers
funny how it feels like it's surrounding me
when the speaker is very clearly to the left


when the song ends
the room is in an abrupt silence
and the walls are farther
and farther away
the walls
they grow taller
and the ceiling rises into the sky
for a minute i close my eyes
and feel an overwhelming empty

but here it is again

the music is starting
they said

the music is starting!
they said

and start it did.

Outside of the walls of safety, cynicism and past experience
Sits an open sea, colored turquoise green
Where inspiration and love can fly,
Like gulls circling in the wind

I built sturdy walls
to protect my mind,
and surrounded my
heart with shields

But I broke down
my defense for her
soft touch and
honey-dipped soul

I surrendered,
'cause I’d rather
have her than all
my chipped walls

And so she left

It’s about your inflexion
and how you deal with rejection
how you go straight to deflection
cause you never learned about confession
only perfection by selection
since you refuse all objection
like you need to have protection
like you can’t allow inspection

here i am,
once again,
knocking at the door
of adventure,
curious to know
what kind of love
awaits for me,
just to have it
collapse and
shatter all over
my heart, my mind,
my thoughts,
so my words
overspill
and my trust in
myself becomes extinct.

There is peace and solitude behind walls
A simple life free from worldly chaos

What lie in your home,
In corners, undisturbed.
Are there thoughts, feelings, of things unknown,
Or one's that may preturb?
Have you ever felt a draft blow through;
That shiver of regret.
Or is your heart hidden from outside view,
Unseen, by even you.

Saftey in shelter, in secrets kept,
I see you, tall and proud.
I also peer through veil and shroud,
Seeing loss for which you've never wept.

How can you expect, to be love adept,
Shunning all feelings which have crept.

honey
drips
out
of
your
words,

you melt
all my walls
down
and sugar coat
this heart
of mine

I've been closing my eyes very frequently the last few weeks...
I try to keep the tears from rolling over my cheeks...
But they keep falling...
I don't want to be seen crying...
The world inside the walls I've built is safer than outside...
Some people might mind that I hide...
But somehow I don't care...
Life is just not fair...
Love has somehow become a lot smaller...
And sorrow grown much taller...
Sometimes I burst with happiness...
But then not long after, I am surrounded by sadness....
I must teach myself how to love my family again....
I've no idea when....
But I do know that I will be alright....
Someday I'll stare at all the starlight....
With my favorite human by my side...
And we'll just listen to the sounds of the tide...