I vaguely remember our car rides together
I wished they'd last forever
We drove around singing Queen
Imagine what could have been?
I'm nearly eighteen,
I'm beginning to forget

I vaguely remember us at Disney
I cling on to the memory fragments
Reenactments of my mind
I wish our lives where redesigned

I've been told you rocked me to sleep
Where are you now when I'm trying to fall asleep?
I vaguely remember your bad jokes
When I awake you're still not here

I imagine our little conversations today
We could play or sway or you could help me with an essay
Possibilities which will never be
Because you did not stay

It dawned upon me, I have spent most of my life away from you
That makes me feel so blue
I wish we could start anew
For I so desperately miss you

The useless,
Inconsequential moments,
Are adding grace,
To my life.

Excuse me sir, but
My life's been turned upside down
I've moved twice this year
You just stab me in the heart
And expect me to function?

Look at me..
I am not a fool,
tell me the truth;
what am I ?
Am I worthless,
useless?
Your biggest regret??
It's okay, I know, I understand..
I never even loved myself

Look at me again,
now I may be a fool,
tell me the truth, don't hide it with a smile..

Have I let you down?
Have I?

Just a kiss... To make me calm
just a punch to make me wrong
hit me once the open palm.
My mind confused for so long.    
Finding solutions that didn't change.       
 Now it's time to rearrange        
All the things to make my life  
Ups and downs a constant ride
cut my heart with a knife
Tear it hard until I died.  
Wish to god I never lied        
From a kiss to a punch what a ride...

Her smile is directly linked to his
In the same way the moon is to the tide
And they smile
And laugh
And cry
Simultaneously
As their hearts beat in sync.

Like two pieces of an endless puzzle
They fit when none of the others do
And they live
And breathe
And die
Together
As one entity.

The world is jealous of their dynamic
But no one is more jealous than me
As I wait
And fret
And rage
Impatiently
For the same dynamic to take me.