One stares at another,
Imagines the life they could lead
With adventures and smiles
Sunrises and tea!
Winking, secret memories
One looks, then turns away, but eyes met and wondered
Of who they are and would come to be
Common- such fantasies.
Life goes down one spiral in time
Lives on the dream of multiple lives.
Will they come to be?
All the possibilities.
Though, they continue to dream,
Maybe it wasn't destiny.
A story that never unfolded,
People that pass and don't notice,
Kids that run and don't care,
One left out thinks, 'man life's unfair
...So uncertain.'

Terrified. I'm terrified,
Of the future,
Of what it holds for me.
It's torture,
To sit here and endure this.
My mind claws,
At the many possibilities.
My mind crawls,
Slowly like a small baby,
Through them.
The shelves of books,
All containing my fears, my hopes,
Tower above my weary looks.
How am I supposed to live?
Shall I be a creative artist?
Maybe a musician?
A grand guitarist?
Am I good enough?
Good enough to reach my goals?
Am I able to succeed?
Or will success slip from my hands like milk from cracked bowls?
Never fear,
For I will try.
Though I must worry,
And sometimes cry.
My heart clenches,
With my every fear,
I brace myself carefully,
Readied for the next year.

I am in love sunrises I have never
seen, with people,
unacquainted, in cities
unvisited.

Unfamiliar roads, pave paths to
Uncertainty.
Do not deny the moonlight,
reminder of yearning.
Homesick,
for a time never lived in, a place non existent,
unknown.

Rudely,
unacquainted.
I am in love with the person
I still have yet to
become.

I cant
do anything
against
this
this fear.

Under everything
that appears ordinary
is the worry
is this fear.

What I want out of life
seems too hard to achieve
and even the thought of trying
is swallowed up
in this fear.

Others success
their joys and triumphs
in contrast to my lack,
just add fuel
to this fear.

This uncertainty.

Will I be able to make it?
or was I not created
to succeed?
That this is all I am
is this fear.