in the bottom of her heart
She knew she would always be in love with him.
their memories will always haunt her
despite how much she tries to erase his memory.
He was her one true love.

I lost you...

Yet I love you, like fire that burns uncontrollably I want you still.

You,;.  My greatest inspiration
I see greatness in your eyes, so who am I to stand in your way

Who am I to claim what I have not earned.
You my greatest friend, our love story is one for the ages; the heavens and black pits whisper of the wonders we could accomplish and yet...

And yet
Now
Not yet
But when

I found myself asking is it real or is it a moment; for I had been through the stormy weather, slept on the burning floors of hell and now this 300g Cone is ash, blackening the light;

My light
All is clouded
My greatest friend
My love untested

I set you free before you could be caged
And now
   An now
      n now
         now

I lost you

To be loved is to be stripped down to your core. Until the truth is exposed and you're an open book.
And then be accepted.
Not for the persona you created, or the fake meaningless words you use to impress, not the clothes you wear, the way you part your hair, or anything of the sort.
But to be accepted in your pure state of self truth.
That is love.

Awake! Awake! Please awake!
The only words she knew as the breath leaves my being
As she sobs, I gained strength
When she stops, my life drifts away.
She's connected with me.

Live! Live! Please live!
Without you I am nothing, I was touched
So deep within my wounds, I felt love sinking through
I was so infatuated.
Even love can heal and I got to experience that.

Breathe! Breathe! Please breathe!
I need you here with me for I am nothing without thee
She vented with her tears, she screamed in anger
I was the hope for her living, the reason at that
She was in love with me.

Don't go! Don't go! Please don't go!
I was at the edge of life,
It was my time to leave scorched earth.
She wept and in her arms is where I died.
She killed herself and I think that was love.

I am where I can take it in  

Relaxing my senses into ease

Our eyes see far greater than what our minds command

Listen to the scent of roots uplifting from their bodies

And you will understand

Your fate

Caressing fresh mint leaf and lavender

:::To Baek Won Kyu

I don't know how many miles it is
to heaven from earth.
But now I understand,
To make me happy,
you don't need to be by my side.
We can be far far away
Like the earth and the sky
It doesn't matter.

I just need you to be in my heart and mind,
and knowing that between the miles,
Our love will stay forever.

I don't know how many miles it is
to heaven from earth.
But now I understand,
you don't need to be by my side.
We can be far far away
Like the earth and the sky
It doesn't matter.

Because everytime I look up to the sky,
I now can see you in every star and cloud,
dancing,
singing,
laughing,
smiling,
crying,
even yelling at me,
or chattering,
on the unforgettable moment.
And between the miles,
The love will endure beyond time and space...

:::Dear you, Happy Birthday in heaven!

9 September 2020

KANYA PUSPOKUSUMO
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