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xavier thomas Nov 2021
#32
Dear God,

It’s been nearly 20 years
since I step away from my second home
-section 8
right outside of Chicago, IL.
I never forgotten where I came from
but almost forgotten my nickname.
The name my beautiful hood
given to me as my identity
became my trademark on my face
I was born with.
Because they knew the right name
would bring tears of joy to their eyes
that showed I made it out alive.
My village still recognizes
me, even present day, as…

My government name is Xavier Deont’e Thomas
But my hood name is “ Tear Drop”

June 24, 1994
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xavier thomas Nov 2021
#31
Dear God,

Tonight I sin lying in bed.
As I fall asleep, a force begins to press pressure on my chest. Pushing me down into my bed. Attacking me with no warning signs. Trying to terrify me. I feel myself beginning to wake up; however, I can not open my eyes for some odd reason. So I panic with each second that goes by. Until it randomly stops. The pressure disappeared from thin air, and I open my eyes breathing real hard.
I don’t know what happened, but if that was you sending someone to come protect me that night,
Thank you.

April 24, 2018
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xavier thomas Nov 2021
#30
Dear God,

I remember this day like it was yesterday. When I was only 4-5 years old, I asked my mom who lives up there (pointing towards the sky), and who lives down there( pointing towards the ground). She told me you ( God) lived in heaven with Jesus, the angels. While the devil & his minions live down below. She was the first person in my life to tell me to follow you father. To be thankful Jesus Christ died for us. Ever since then, I been curious of your mysterious ways, thinking about you daily.

March 16, 1998
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Madeleine Nov 2021
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xavier thomas Oct 2021
#29
Dear God,

When is enough “enough” for you?
We (your creation) have sinned, cast stones, apologize for our actions, been forgiven, felt good, then repeated the same cycles for centuries to come.
So again I ask, when is enough “enough” for you?
Or you love us that much, hoping we’ll finally get the message.


February 14, 1989
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xavier thomas Oct 2021
#28
Dear God,

When I die
I want my day to be celebrated.
No pain, no sorrows, no regrets, no sadness.
Just a big party full of fun living, breathing, healthy people who enjoy the company of genuine people.
That I be remembered as a goofy, silly, different type of unique being that has enjoyed his time on earth.
Because I can honestly say I lived & learned in this world.
And I did it all thanks to you.

October 26, 2038
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Ellis Oct 2021
I-
-want to say-
-something-
but i-
-to talk to you-
but i-
-thinking about thinking-
-too- because i-
-think-    -much-
-i meant too much-
but i-
-m just a ******-
because i-
-don’t know what to-
but i-
-see you walk away-
because i-
-didn’t- -opened my-
dumb mouth
but i-
sit-
next to you- -so close-
because i-
-want-
-want,want,want-
I really want

-talk to you-
but i-
-stumble, fumble, tumble-
over words-
-because i-
No- -i’m not-
-really-
but i- -i’m not lonely- -because i-
-convinced myself 15 different times-
-with 15 different excuses-



-so what-
-if you walk away-




I’ll talk to someone else.
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#1
Dear God,

I rather be a honest sinner and give my soul to you
expressing my truth
than a lying hypocrite idolizing a fake life in society .

February 28, 1968
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xavier thomas Oct 2021
#2
Dear God,

Thank you for waking me up this morning. Forgive me for my sins & unknown sins each and everyday.

June 20, 1994
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xavier thomas Oct 2021
#3
Dear God,

I’m mad.
Sometimes I wish you would come down here & stop the madness that goes on around here. The killing, stealing, disrespect. I wish that you would stop these bad people from harming others for their own desires.

But at the same time, how can I be mad at you? You gave us free will. You gave us everything we needed and it was certain individuals own fault that caused all of these issues to occur.
It’s s not your fault that we don’t know how to behave. I guess I’m upset because I want you to do something about it.
I’m sorry. Forgive my ignorance.

Sometimes I just wish you controlled these situations.

March 9, 1988
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