admiring the freckles on your skin
I want to feel everything
when you said you wanted to make love to me
I could feel the heath rushing to my cheeks
and when I felt your fingers trace my skin like poetry
over parts of me that are supposedly broken
all of me that isn’t enough
with every kiss you remind me
the heavier the sin
the sweeter the touch

she is sunshine
with freckles like a sunflower,
and eyes like leaves,
sweetening my day like sugar.
she keeps me growing.

what effects
do you have on me
do you have for me
does it loop
does it reverb
or it distort
i bet it echoes
just like beats
of my heart
of my affection
don't delay
but we can replay
those sweet melodies
those sweet rhythm
of us
of me and you
silently echoing
through
the
sound
proof
room
got me
got you
press me
press you
light on
light down

xo

I remember the way I truly felt.
I remember the first time we met,
I knew I never had a chance with you,
I remember looking into your eyes,
I saw the love and happiness in your soul,
I remember the way I truly felt.
I remember waking up each day thinking I got to see you,
I always knew there was something special about you,
I remember when we first started to talk,
I never wanted to quit,
I remember the way I truly felt.
I remember looking past your beauty to who you truly are,
I started to get a funny feeling in my lower stomach,
I remember having a dream about you,
I knew that you didn't feel the same way back,
I remember the way I truly felt.
I remember when we started to become close,
I always liked you deep down in my heart,
I remember you telling me you felt the same way back,
I never could have been happier,
I remember the way I truly felt.
I remember asking you to come and  see you,
I wasn't sure how things would go,
I remember holding your hand for the first time,
I knew then I wanted you and no other girl,
I remember the way I truly felt.
I remember standing close to you talking,
I wished we could have more time to do it again,
I remember taking your hand in mine and getting close to you,
I didn't know what to say and didn't know how I felt,
I remember the way I truly felt.
I remember thinking what it would be like to lose you,
I didn't know what to do,
I remember hearing you like me so much,
I couldn't imagine my life with out you,
This is the way I truly feel about u

To my very best friend:
How do I even begin?
You are only 19.
You were only 19.
My sweet, sweet boy I miss you so much.
I can’t wrap my head around the fact that I will never see you again.
I can’t breathe knowing your beautiful soul is no longer in earth.
I remember the sinking feeling in my stomach when I heard the news.
I remember hoping, praying, feeling as if everyone was playing a sick joke on me.
I remember the panic that spread through me like a searing pain.
I remember how cold my body became, the chills spreading quickly.
I love you my sweet, sweet best friend.
19 years of being alive.
19 years that this earth was blessed with you.
15 years of friendship.
15 years of memories together.
15 years of joy, smiles, and laughter.
I love you my sweetest best friend.
Thank you for loving me the way you did.
Thank you for being the kind of friend that comes once in a lifetime.
Thank you for bringing joy to everyone who met you.
Thank you for being my best friend.
I love you. I miss you.
I’ll love you for the rest of my life.
You will ALWAYS be my best friend.
Love forever and always,
Your best friend.

The wolf in my heart will never let the world see the lamb in my soul,

But sometimes you see it in my eyes