I starve myself
Because the intense growl in my stomach
is the only time
something tells me it cares about me
I take freezing showers
that make it hard to breathe
Because it's the only time
I fight to stay alive
I read past conversations
of my heart getting broke
Because it's the only time
I can control when I cry
I fake happiness
for those around me
Because I'd rather hide my pain
than my peers to pretend to care
I isolate myself
from everything
Because it's the only time
that I am the only one who can hurt me
I'm stuck in a depressive paradox;
the only way for me to survive my pain
is to make my own
Was going go use the term "borborygmus" in the second line, but decided that's too extra.