#suicidalthoughts poems

Makayla Nov 2018

Passing

I wanted to know if you'd want a letter
If I were to leave
But I told myself it wouldn't matter;
They wouldn't care

So I stared at your name
And thought about how you'll go to school
But I won't be there

How I won't just be home, sick
I'll be found dead by my mother when she goes to wake up my siblings but asks her boyfriend to open the bathroom door instead
For the door is locked, my shoes and bag are near the front door still, and there's no response

I thought about how you'd find out about my death
If the school would be told and they'd announce it
Maybe you'd stumble upon a newspaper and see my obituary
Or maybe a part of you would just know

I reminded myself of people I love
How I'm scared of what happens after I die
And the thoughts of what hell could be like
I tried to tell myself God would understand
But nobody would care about me;
I deserve to suffer like the ******* I am

I ask myself what my final words should be
But I can't think of anything original and deep to say
So all I can say is I apologize for what I've done
And I hope you forgive me, let go, and move on to have a happy life

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#apology #depression #sad #sorry #sadness #suicide #suicidalthoughts

Makayla Nov 2018

Good

I'm finished and I'm done
Now everyone knows

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#suicide #depression #suicidalthoughts #sad #sadness #goodbye

Makayla Nov 2018

Nothing

What's it matter Makayla?
You're nothing to everyone.

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#depression #sad #sadness #suicide #suicidalthoughts

Makayla Nov 2018

Trust

I should've known I can't trust anyone
For they only leave in the end
No matter how many reasons they have to stay
And memories that should keep them around

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#sad #depression #sadness #suicidal #suicidalthoughts #selfharm

Makayla Nov 2018

Abandonment

You said you'd always be there
But,
You left
And now I don't know where you are
Nor do I want to look desperate searching everywhere for you

My 3rd poem about you big bro Jakey...
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#depression #sad #sadness #lonely #alone #suicidal #suicidalthoughts #selfharm #cutting

Makayla Nov 2018

Urges

With the knowledge that my skin is healing
That my cuts are fading
Makes me want to create more
So my "friends" never leave
And my little relapse depression party can rave on

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#sad #selfharm #sadness #depression #suicide #suicidal #suicidalthoughts

Skyler M Oct 2018

Alternative Thoughts

Vertical, horizontal,
Pen that escapes my mind,
Bring back bones that I meant to burn,
Bring back the energy that kept me alive,
Where will they go from me.

Alternative thoughts mold into a voice,
Chasms call for a parents help,
When all they ever do is deny,
Their kid needs to be perfect and perfect they'll be,
If the time changes and your brain shifts them slowly.

If purpose if all I look for is my mind really trying to find it?
It's hard to think that when the water is black when it's supposed to be blue,
I promised that I'd be happier, that I'd live for them,
But I can't when I'm trying to figure myself and my own voice out,
Easy to call me selfish cause It's all you can really see,
Then take a look into my poison cups and see,
What I've been introspecting and inspecting inside of my head.

Alternative thoughts mold into a voice,
Chasms call for a parents help,
When all they ever do is deny,
Their kid needs to be perfect and perfect they'll be,
If the time changes and your brain shifts them slowly.

#youth #teen #denial #disbelief #trying #suicidalthoughts

Keyan R Oct 2018

If I was gone today.

I've thought of suicide before
breathing my final days; Mi Amor
Holding onto life at its core
to be better than I was before

I've thought about the impact devastation and the react
Those that would come in contact
them thinking thoughts about me
My lifeless body..." yep, there's me"
The visually impaired who didn't see another way
Now others that stare in the same direction
Share the same contacts

Voices of opinions
because everyone's entitled
like the start of an adventure
the deceased cannot change the title
Some still in denial
And others have already crossed the sea,
And life will go on regardless of me.

Many people are going through worse stuff than me. When you only focus on yourself and get lost in your own bubble I feel like people miss many opportunities that go their way. It's much easier to put blame on someone else instead of confronting them on your own,..

#depression #death #sadness #suicidalthoughts #outofbody #stories #suicide #pain #soul