My other father... for Merve

Locked away in my mind
No chance of release
Trapped in my room
Only place I found peace

Too broken to speak
But unable to weep
Tears locked frozen
Doors won't open
Hurt buried under
heart raging thunder

Then you were around
Spoiling my view
I wanted my daddy
I didn't ask for you
Sitting by my mum
Holding her hand
Churned up my stomach
Too young to understand

Then one day I felt a
Small love from within
You never gave up
You never gave in
Surly this meant that-
Could it really be
That I wasn't unlovable
Because you loved me

You were there for the
darkest long years of my life
Me staring at my reflection
Gripping the knife

I'm so grateful to you
that you stayed by my
side
I think had you not been
I would surly have died

We are heading toward the unknown morning,
ready to face with the heavy light of the world
only this livid silence embraces us now,
yet still, I do not fear to take one step forward
for I know there's no future forsaken
for I know I am going to happen by you.

Every step of mine
Is in your pursuit.
Wherever you may be
You are in my vision

When the bond is of pain,
Then how bad is separation.
As only they get separated,
That were always wanted.

You are hidden within,
In my heart my friend.
If not inside my smiles,
Then surely in my grimaces.

Every step of mine
Is in your pursuit.
Wherever happiness is
There lies my success.

Fall down
We grasp at everything
But as we drown
We realize we have nothing

Climb back up
We continuously fight
Take each step even though
We barely see light

Walk a mile
We want to give up already
But we can't help but smile
At the progress we're making

Run toward the skies
We reach for the blue
And we rise
To enjoy the view

.

*Wants to be the old stone bridge
Awaits, sense the rain, sun and sleet
Until the day
You, just once step out
And I recognize your feet
On your way, across me
Then I could wait
more than five thousand years
On this delight