Wanna know something that hurts ?
It burns me down to the core,
It keeps me awake at night...
It's... a thing I never thought I'd live to hear.
Though.... I think I should've seen it coming..
I mean.. all the signs were there..
I should've expected it..
For ***** sake..  I even thought about it.
It sounds so different when you say it though...
It hurts as much as a twisted knife right in my heart..



I always thought we were inseparable
You know, like the moon and the stars?
Never one without the other..
But now the darkness of the night is too dark for them to shine as bright as they once did..
I always thought you were the love my life, and I was yours too,
Though I'm not so sure about that anymore..
Not because I don't love you, or because I want to leave
You hurt me more than anyone else ever did
So yeah, maybe I don't have a reason to stay
But I feel like, in my heart, I don't want to give this love away..



But... you wanna know something that hurts.. ?
It hurts me more that I don't even know how to put it into words...
You said something.. I never wanted to hear
But the fact that it's true... it just.. makes me wish I was not even here
I want to be somewhere else, somewhere in peace..
Somewhere where I don't have to deal with all this.



But I can't, because I'm here
All thoughts inside my head now circling in a sphere
Voices I can't help since they're the only thing I can perceive.
They hurt me, you know?
They won't ever leave me alone..
But what's worse is what they keep saying
Because it's repeated,
And it makes me cry everytime..
I don't even know how I'm supposed to look in your eye
Now that I how you truly feel about me..
That for you, the spark we had is gone..
That you don't even know how to love me anymore..



Honestly.. what you keep saying
Rises more questions than just explains
But that's not even what's important now,
Because what matters..
Is that it hurts.
It hurts to see that the person you love managed to hurt you with just these words...

You may have been unexpected but you healed me properly.
I want to do that too.
I want to fix something in you that I didn't break.
I want to help you find a way.
I'm staying for you, I hope baby that you do the same.

There’s a
flaring Beast
in my gut today
And it screams
for things
I must Not say

“If you Want
to make her Stay
don’t just watch
as she flies away”

I would like
to be as Brave
as the flaring Beast
I shut away.

If I spread my soul out before you, would you stay, seeing all my light and all my dark?
  -Rhia Clay