you and me both

always the poet,
never the muse.
let’s change that
at least for one of us

'cause i just realized

for the first time,
i don’t hate someone

i want my mind
to touch yours,
to be the one for you
i never had.

how I grew wings
for you to
rest in the shadows

i want to burn
just so you burn brighter.
i want to see you grow
into something new
and still find me
in the roots.

the shape of me
curved slightly by your shadow,
my laugh rewritten in your tone,
your worries echoing in my chest
like a younger brother’s secret.

i want to be in your blood
before that poem was written,
behind the darkest nights,
beneath the brightest sparks.

everyone you love
i want to see you
love them even more.

feel everything.
see the dust in the sunbeams.
remember me
in that moment
right after the fireworks fade.

i want to teach you,
for you to teach me.
to heal you
like you heal me.

i wish you could see
how proud you make me
in ways i never knew i could be

I would trade all the stars above
Just to have another hug
The sun and moon too
For your "I love you"

I miss your smile, it cut through my sorrow
Your love made me want to see tomorrow
I miss your dark ocean blue eyes
They always seen through my disguise

I miss the way you'd hug me tight
When everything wasn't right
I miss your friendship most of all
When both of us were in a fall

That day my world went from gray to black
There's nothing I wouldn't do to have you back
But way to soon you was called back home
So now I travel this dark road alone

©Pauline Russell