There you are
Here I am

Are we going to stop the rain for us to cancel out the noise of our past

If you step out from under here
You will drown
In my baggage

There they are
Drinking their sorrows
Some taking beers
They can't bear
Calling themselves single
Behind them lies flawless breakups
Afraid to be in love
Torn to  halves
Hope in heaven they won't be single
I hate carrying drunken masters home

I walk in the mornings
I go to random events
I sit by the window
I leave windows open
I play my music loud
I leave shades open
I go to parks and beaches
I do all of these things in hopes of being noticed
Maybe one day ill be seen
Maybe one day someone will talk to me
Maybe one day ill have someone special
Maybe one day ill feel complete
Maybe one day someone will come along and sit with me
Maybe one day I won’t be alone
Maybe one day I won’t be forever searching

Everyone I ever loved never loved me back or loved me too late. Everyone I ever loved only loved to wait.
Fate.
Fire.
Faith, I’m lost and found. Waiting to be claimed from beneath the ground. I want a love that you can’t satiate.
I want a soulmate.

Does the fact that I love candles that smell like men’s cologne versus feminine floral scents categorize me as lonely? Because I’ve been single for two years now and I think that I might be lonely.

The vastness of the universe;
Inconceivable!
A drop of water within the ocean;
Unrecognizable!

Above calm ocean surface;
a drop of water can cause ripples;
For how long does this ripple last?

Above the earth surface;
a mortal brought changes;
For how long does this change last?

Humans, no different from weeds in the mountain fields;
Mountains, no different from stray rocks on earth;
Earth, no different from rolling marbles in the constellation;
Constellation; no different from willows branch in the universe!

Such greatness!
Myriad laws weave Ten Thousands Things within the great universe;
No living can escape the laws;
No dead being can escape the laws;
Nothing can escape the laws!

Waking up in another lonely night
Wish you were here so I could hold you tight.
Pain in my heart that where did the love I feel go.....

Then I realized most things we experienced in life is already written for one thing or the other.
All we need to look for is the great lesson in such experience.

In our own case, I learnt a great lesson of "BE MYSELF"
Though so hurt by the reward is great.
I can now understand how much you loved me but I don't love myself.

Self realization that I have now is due to your silence and I don't care attitude.
But now I am off your hook for i have known whom u truly missed is not you but Myself!
Whom I have caged in the ring of loving you. Thinking you are to bring me joy and satisfaction.
Alas I have nothing close to that until now.
My wish is to share this my reality with you once more.
Because my heart now knows only true heart and it is YOU!

GRACIAS💓