#sick poems on Hello Poetry

Kayla Gallant Jun 2019

I scream over the banging and pounding
I doubt you can hear me
Throat raw and red with anger
I throw my words at you like knives
But they never reach you
For my tongue is foreign
Like a wild animal confined to a cage
I wish I could break free
To snap your neck
And make you see
This world is not as it seems
These people are not real

Society is too far gone ❤️

#deluded #people #society #sick #fake #knives #scream #ideals #freedom #uncaged

Cardboard-Jones Jun 2019

Desire And Shame

It’s the right time to fall asleep
And remember...everything.
We can start again, I’m so over this…....I wish.

We're so destructive with lack of care.
Douse the fire that we claim we need but instead,
Lie awake, eyes on the wall.
Every night, there is a chance, such an obvious chance
We're making a mistake,
But we denounce our logic.
Lights out, open thighs... ...I won’t regret this.

Get a phone call from our significant’s
Ignore it, and their pain increases.
And we fade into this secret world
That we forged through infidelity.
I recall the sweetest sin you said... ...baby it’s just a kiss.

And now we're changing
The future in my bed sheets,
Leaving a trail of bleeding hearts.
I shoulda burned you out of my mind
A long time ago, but I’m fixed on you
Like an addict….
...I think I’m gonna be sick.

#desire #shame #lies #infidelity #struggle #sick

Empire Jun 2019

Afflictions

My stomach is churning
Spinning and ill
What is it this time?
Let’s see... it could be:
Anxiety
Hunger
Guilt
Caffeine
Paroxetine
Or I suppose... actual sickness?

Let’s be real, it’s probably not

#sick #ill #anxiety #hunger #antidepressants #guilt

chitragupta May 2019

Just a minute

Time is money
And all my money is spent
On the letters I typed in
and pressed delete instead of send

Wasted my recesses
on machine made black coffee,
That was as devoid of sweetness
as the empty chair opposite me

All those hours
of thinking may have been in vain
For now I crave just a minute
to gaze upon your face again

There has been no greater need of a time machine than for a poet feeling regret.

#regret #sad #love #sick #time

Empire May 2019

What’s Wrong with Me

Hello there,
I’m lonely and desperate
I’m fighting my own mind
I eat to fill gaps in my soul
I love to wallow in self-pity
I like to think I’m special
I’ve pushed away all my friends
I’m too scared to get high
So instead I drink coffee ‘til I shake
My smiles are often very fake
I have no idea who I am
I’m either a very troubled individual
Or I’m a terrible drama queen
And truth be told,
I kind of like it like this
What’s wrong with me

Working on a bit of self-reflection...

#self #mind #human #flaws #drama #pity #lonely #desperate #sick

Derrek Estrella May 2019

By Ezekiel, I Am Ill

Do you look down at me?
Oh, I look up at you!
You! You! You!
Look down at me? Me?
I am nothing, by Ezekiel!
Shut your vagrant mouth.
You close it, like a confounded swine!
My God!
Stop looking down at me!
Not me! Not me!
I am feeling violent today.
Oh, very severe.
You, you, you.

I am feeling like a ruffian.
Today, and other days.
It is not like other days.
Want to be gone today.
Pick at my brain-
Oh, be gone today.
Ah. Ah ahhhhhh
Gone, gone, gone
Go go go
Going to a-go-go
To ****** row
Sweet baby Jezebel
Orange crooner Mimir
Take me to the sempiternal nest
Rest rest rest.

#streamofconsciousness #freeassociation #sick #ill #mind #mine #pain

Empire May 2019

Lurking

There’s something there
Lurking in the depths of my mind
Feeding me lies
Poisoning my heart
It makes me grow weak
I stagger through my days
My mind a jumble
Memory a blur
I can’t tell
If I’m even myself
When it twists my thoughts
Warps my emotions
Am I numb?
Do I want to be?
I don’t know what’s true
Except that I’m sure
There’s something there
Lurking inside.

I feel it deep within, it’s just beneath the skin.
I must confess that I feel like a monster.
-Skillet, “Monster”

#mental #health #illness #self #mind #control #monster #sick #emotion #fear

Max May 2019

Stay

Stay a little longer, just for me.
Don't leave me here, you make me stronger.

You were my buddy, my pal when nobody stood by me in the past hell.

You're going to leave, and I'm scared.
Not because you're gone, but just because you're not there.

I wished you could and stayed a little longer.
I want to make you proud.

You'll be something I carry, around my neck and near to my heart.

So if the moment may come, the moment I fear.
Can I trust you, that you're staying by my side, up there?

Don't go, let's stop the time.

I don't want to face this fear.

For my grandma, I love her.

#grandma #scared #dying #death #sick #courage #tough #love #fear

W May 2019

The battle between what?

My body shifts and the world is shaking at my feet
Yet the birds sing all around me as I try to sleep
Is my mind playing tricks on me that I'm unable to tell the difference from reality?
The physical pain when I'm without you draws me closer to you.. but you are bad for me… but as I sleep with this pain in my mind caused by you to make me want you even more
Was it love?
. it's a vicious cycle
As the sun and the moon. I'm the Earth you created me the son who you gave life in the balance of the right amount of warmth and cold heartedness
As I'm just a boy who sees the mind of when I sleep..and the beauty it can be but to have you together awake and happy together the perfect love it could be.. would be the destruction of my body in which I can bring your dreams to reality..
But
Right now you.. together…
You would never need to sleep or to eat you be out all day and all night and forget about the son you left at home while you partied but I'm only 3 years old… I can't even reach the stove

What am I even talking about? I'm crazy go to sleep... It's 6 am already

Comparing life in many different scopes

#sunandmoon #divorcedpartners #consciousness #unconsonsciousness #love #addiction #sleeplessnights #sick

Empire May 2019

Strange Flesh

Oddities of flesh
Pale and sickly
Necrotic, peeling off
Craving death so near
But if treated with care,
It will glow like fire
Radiant, vibrant
And it will be so
Impossibly beautiful
Full of vitality
Powerful
But, it must be
Treated with care

A friend mentioned a few days ago that my skin looked really vibrant, and she asked if I had been doing something different. It dawned on me that I had finally been taking care of myself for the first time in a very long time. I had been outside more, relaxing, eating better, taking walks. And I physically looked and felt so much better! Not long before, I had been deeply depressed. (If you don’t believe me, go back and read some of my work from then a few weeks back or so) Please don’t give up hope! There will be days you are glad your heart is beating!

#self #care #mental #health #flesh #human #skin #beauty #vitality #sick