#sexualassault poems on Hello Poetry

pearl Apr 2020

my blood is on his hands,
but oh,
he got away!
"he's a thief! he's a thief!" i cry
as he runs into the distance
with my innocence in a bag
thrown over his shoulder
i scream and shrill
"there's not enough evidence," they said
but my blood!
oh, my blood!
it's on his hands!

i want to douse him in gasoline and throw matches on him
i will laugh and smile while he screams

#sexualassault #ptsd #crime #cocsa #abuse #trauma #traumatized #**** #blood #proof

pearl Mar 2020

leave no trace

you were so careful not to leave bruises
you knew exactly what you were doing
so careful not to leave a mark but so insistent
on handling me roughly and reducing me to nothing
you called me such horrible things that day
“****,” you said
“*****,” you said
despite the fact that you forced
your grimy hands on me
you FORCED me to do EVERYTHING
*******
I HATE YOU

i hope you burn in hell. *******

#abuse #sexualassault #cocsa #metoo #**** #bruises #trauma #ptsd #traumatic #flashback

pearl Mar 2020

cemetery

he ripped the words from my throat
he locked them away
in a box that he calls a 'coffin'
he dug a pit
and buried them six-feet-under
next to the
grave where my innocence lay

#death #trauma #ptsd #**** #sexualassault #grave #traumatized #metoo #stolen #monster

pearl Mar 2020

cutting board

you are the reason
that i sliced into
the flesh of my legs
and left lines
like the ones on mama's cutting board
where she chopped up fruit

but my body isn't a cutting board

#**** #triggerwarning #sexualassault #cocsa #ptsd #trauma #metoo #traumatized #symbolism

pearl Mar 2020

dog

your filthy hands
           gripped on my jaw,
your grimy fingers
                      forcing my mouth open
                            treated like a dog who won't let go of a shoe
                       defiled
                  ruined
dehumanized

#**** #sexualassault #cocsa #csa #ptsd #trauma #triggering #metoo #abuse #vent

pearl Mar 2020

little lamb

i was
    a little lamb
               and you were
                      a wolf in sheep's clothing
and when i trusted you
         you tore off your wool
                 and dug your claws
                                  into my flesh

be wary of the wolf

#wolfinsheepsclothing #littlelamb #wolf #cocsa #csa #**** #abuse #sexualassault #sad

pearl Mar 2020

my fault

my fault
“well, what were you wearing?”
my fault
“did you not fight back?”
my fault
“you should have screamed"
my fault
"why did you wait to tell anyone?"
my fault
"it just means he thought you were pretty"
my fault
     my fault
           my fault
                 my fault
                       my fault
                             YOUR FAULT.

*******, XXXXXX.

i want to burn you alive

#**** #triggerwarning #cocsa #ptsd #trauma #anger #shame #guilt #sexualassault #metoo

pearl Mar 2020

the r word

****.
are you uncomfortable?
                 tell me
                         do you feel sick?
****.
i will say it
        over and over again
                    each time louder
                                and more angry than the last
****.
repeating, repeating, repeating
                                 until you decide to
                                                    take action
                                                            and stop blaming the victim
****.
does it scare you?
            do something about it
                       scream about how enraged
                                          you are that this is even an issue

#fear #**** #sexualassault #victimblaming #triggerwarning #anger #upset #passionate

pearl Mar 2020

swear words

god, *******
           i ******* despise you
                          pure ****.
       **** of the ******* earth.
do you understand?
               will you ever
                       understand?
                             the longevity of the pain
            that you've inflicted on me?
when you put your
           filthy
               unwelcomed
                          hands on me
        i want to tear away
the flesh
       and skin
                 where you gripped me


                          *******.

un-*******-forgettable in the most disgusting way a human could possibly fathom

#sexualassault #triggerwarning #vent #ptsd #cocsa #abuse #trauma #traumatic #metoo #swearing