#schizophrenia poems on Hello Poetry

jeristorms Sep 2019

Pad and pen,
here are Casey’s thoughts again...

Driving down the highway, Jason is strapped in because Casey’s in denial again. She doesn’t want to lose her little one.

Wake up Casey, you’re dreaming. He’s gone.
You drove under the influence.
What’s wrong with you?
This is what you get. He’s never coming back.

Driving silent like a mime with its mouth sewn shut.
You’re just like a mime, living in a black and white world.
You’re gray matter Case.
You’re a nut-case.
Where’d you put your straight jacket?

You hit your brakes to assure Jason will be safe.
Convinced that at every intersection there’s a conspiracy against you,
sure to get hit.

But Casey, it’s too late. This is what you get.
He’s never coming back.

Why’d you have to reach for more?

Lock her up.
Strap her in.

Casey's off the deep end... again.

Mentally ill.

#mental #mentalhealthawareness #bipolar #alcoholism #mentallyill #schizophrenia #paranoia #lost #thoughts #latenight

Creator Sun Sep 2019

Laugh

Do you see the boy?
Skipping and jumping under the sky?
Laughing like he has no fear in the world.
Holding hands with air.

Do you notice the way he moves?
The way his feet jerks and grooves?
Moving so unnaturally,
Laughing like there's no end in things.

Lovely schizophrenia, isn't it?
The way it came from his mother?
The way he cares for someone else
Suffering from the same mental illness.

Delusions, fabrications, dreams that is unreal.
the way that he perceives the world makes me really feel.
Uncomfortable, yet I don't think that he asked me to feel
Pity for his condition.

Laugh of a thousand children,
Asking for a better future,
Those ones that seek the asylum,
And look forward for capture.

Public opinion on mental illness is changing, but is it for the better?

#mental #illness #schizophrenia #laughter #laugh #asylum #capture #delusional #unnaturally #children

Bec Aug 2019

Chain link fences

Patterns are like chains
I can’t break free
Or at least that’s the way
It seems to me

#patterns #addiction #depression #ocd #schizophrenia #psychotic #psychosis #overthinking #sad

Asominate May 2019

It's not Real

Crashing,
Spiralling around.

I keep you safe,
But lose my sound

Judgements collide,
Reality becomes a lie

When would be the last time I die?

#existentialcrisis #whatislife #asominate #mylife #crisis #suicide #schizophrenia

Philomena Jul 2019

Lost in a Dream

I remember the emptiness in your eyes
Waiting for you to die
You never knew I turned out just like you
What a sick twisted game it is
I remember speaking to you softly
Watching you struggle to eat
And I remember telling you
"It's me, your grand-daughter"
Only for you to just stare in my face
I remember hours of cards in the waiting room
And the very last time I saw you
Tied to a bed
Lost in a dream you would never escape from
Fighting so hard
Ultimately to only give up

Almost two years

#death #grandmother #schizophrenia #pain #loss #memory #mental #disorder

Philomena Jun 2019

Impostor to a Perfect Child

"Now please don't ever be gay, wait no please don't ever turn out crazy. If you were gay we'd always accept you, you know that, just please don't. And please don't be crazy you remember your grandmother, I don't think I could bear it."

You know I do it all for you mom.
I hold my tongue
I don't look at the other girls, not like I used to anyways
I lock myself in dark rooms and let the tears fall
I try to be sane

Truth is I'll never really be what you want me to be.
I'm an impostor to a perfect child.
And while I might never be a perfect girl or a perfect daughter,
I'm doing my best.
I might lie awake at night while horrors race though my mind,
and my body might love soft curves,
and I might never be just like you,
but I'm fighting it with all I've got.
And I know that I can never tell you my true nature,
but I do sincerely wish you could see
all I've done to be what you wanted.

#impostor #perfect #child #questioning #schizophrenia #disorder #fake #daughter #mom

Petrie Jun 2019

A Collection of Poems by Petrie Vol. 402

Life of a $&%!#*-%^3(!&

Whispers,
Screams,
Conversations,
Music,
Demands,
Preferences,
But never silence.
Dear god there is never a moment of silence.
The things they say,
The things I see...
The things they make me feel.
As if there are eyes burning into the back of my skull.
Watching...
Waiting.
For the perfect moment;
When I'm sad,
Mad,
Lonely,
Vulnerable.
To catch me at my lowest,
So I will obey every word they so elegantly whisper
From the back of my own mind.
Ultimately my own twisted thoughts,
Paranoia,
Fears,
Anger.

Life of a Schizophrenic

#schizophrenia #life #paranoia #fear #silence #sadness #anger

James Hooper May 2019

Exhale

These roads are black
Burning my souls
I’m wishing for direction
Perhaps nobody knows
They whisper
“Nobody Knows...”

Shhhhh

My stomach feels empty
THOUGH IT’S NOT
This pacing has me more
Lost.
Oh, how it’s turning in
KNOTS

Shhhhh

HELP ME

Shhhhh

I could help me
I’m stuck in overdrive
I should help me before I end
my life

Shhhhh

I’M STUCK IN OVERDRIVE

MY lack of purpose
Your picket fence and glory
MY broken brain
Should I be sorry

I AM SORRY

Shhhhh

Breath,
You are worthwhile
None of this is real
SURE
Just another **** pile

Farewell to the chaos
cheers to the tears

Shhhhhh

******* VOICES

Inhale - Exhale
Inhale - Exhaaaa
Inha - Ex————-

#schizophrenia #depression #bipolar #sad

Asominate May 2019

Illustionist

My mind destabilizes
My memory departs
Empty horizons
Dark storm clouds lurk

Laying out the bricks
I'm building up a wall
Now for my latest tricks
Is it you or I behind the bars?

#iluusion #illusionist #asominate #prison #trapped #mental #memory #schizophrenia