A few years ago
you were written all over me
you could read me
I was your book

you wrote your own stories
and I repeated them
when I left
when you shut me out

I will never forget that time
a few years ago
it was the holidays
we hung out
you wrote a story that day
a story I wish I could someday tell

maybe one day it'll be framed
shown to the world
but even when I did
the only person who would understand
would be you

the book is closed
and I know
ill never be the same
as I was a few years ago

are you okay?
have you been able to sleep?

every night I stare at my phone
as it all becomes about you
every day I continue on
just as I did before

you always thought you controlled me
you never believed me when I told you
I stood my own ground

but ill always wish ever night
I could look you in the eyes
and ask you

are you okay?
have you been able to sleep?

if the roles were reversed
if the shoe was on the other foot
would you have let me hurt you
the way you did?

would it be emotionless
would the pain be non existent
would everything be the same
would it just be without me

would you hug yourself?
would you scream at the pain I caused you?
would you be too hurt, to even see my name?
would you lose yourself in a mess you couldn't control?

would you hope that the pain wouldn't stay?
would you hope maybe you could be okay again?
would you hope you could look me in the eye?
would you hope to be able to trust,like you once did?

would you hope one day you could trust again?
would you hope one day you were able to feel again?
would you hope one day you would love
the way I loved you?

no.

you wouldn't smile the way you did when you met me
you wouldnt feel how you did when I numbed all the pain.

You're holding my heart
With your delicate hands and
long fingers
And you caress it with tenderness
and care.
You hold it like it's the most valuable treasure in the world.


But then you start squeezing it
and
crushing it
and
squashing it
'Till it bleeds out and all that is left
Are a few shards scattered into the dark
of the void night

I sit by sorrow's streams
Amidst wistful longing
Your first soft kiss that lingered
will forever haunt my dreams

How sad it seems
to be so slavishly in love
weary even of life,
such sorrowful extremes,

but I hear remnants of our song
and pine for your possession
to live without you is my bane
life has dealt a bitter wrong

lost in the loneliness
this bereft heart grieves
solace now I seek, in
whiskey's lullaby to forgetfulness

ALesiach © 07/27/2019

Deep in the night,
she emerges from the mist.
Clinging to a rose of white,
longing for the one that is missed.

She stands on a rocky peak,
the rose's thorns have dug in deep.
The wind howls and shrieks,
but her eyes have no more tears to weep.

Watching the moonlight dance with the sea,
before crashing on the rocks below.
Once more together they shall be,
as off the cliff she does go.

ALesiach © 10/17/2014

Sometimes I get lost
Now that you have wandered far away
Remembering our love's sweet cost
Every moment of the day

I have danced inside your eyes
To your music, so sweet and clear
Surrendered to you in the heat of the night
My wanton cries filled your ears

Memories come on a midnight breeze
The taste of your sweet breath
Your gentle caress on my ivory keys
As we embrace the little death

You soothed away my restless feelings
Tasted my river of tears
Then left me grieving
Turning my hopes into fears

My heart is made of stone now
My dreams have faded away
Frozen beneath the garden bough
Where my love was buried, that day

ALesiach © 07/17/2017

Is love merely a dream
or a game that people play?
Does it shine in morning's beam
or cry, ruin and decay?

Do we lose ourselves in the end
or find a partner in life and death?
Will you be my lover and faithful friend
or turn away before I breathe my next breath?

ALesiach © 01/10/2018