It came like this:
Tousled sandy hair, chin held high
One from a regime where love is a lie
Slowly but surely, we took the cake
And fell into a pattern I thought was fake
Honest confessions showed your true colours
Turning us from roots to flowers
Which bloomed into late night calls
And that’s where I thought the end was, overall.
But you and New Years brought the two of us
To a place where I couldn’t have seen us
When you didn’t bide your time & grabbed my hair
A month later, all I did was hold your stare.
We lay barefoot on beds
Stayed apart till light left
But our efforts were in vain
Now that our truths no more restrain
But Love, as long as I can hold on the happiness I have found with you, I’ll be satisfied & follow where life leads me with you.
That’s how I met Love.

I’ll forget what joy feels like
But remember the weight
I’m cursed to lose in love
This sin was a bait
6’2” of a boy curled around kicked-in ribs
A recalcitrant heart met a colony kid

The moon looks like the one
Reigning over in February
Don’t come to London
Don’t scream “Why’d you leave me?”
Just because I don’t show it
Doesn’t mean I don’t feel it
Wish there weren’t a wall
Wish you could still be here with me

Dreamt of having Paris in the palm of my hands
You unsolicitedly wrecked all their plans
The swooniest moments, the toughest desires
But when the clock struck midnight,
Had to curse out our fire

Santal 33, stuck in closets, no keys
These were the answers you searched for so hopelessly
I set them down on the table
God, I need you to hear me
Warned I’d only be there
Momentarily

The moon looks like the one
Over the oak at the party
Don’t throw out the chain
Don’t curse the palace that keeps me
Away from my love, my joy, my ultimate fury
Wish there weren’t a wall
Wish you could still be here with me

I was raised in rooms with rules for walls
Taught to smile and never fall
Pillars built on stacks of gold
Future history foretold
They say I chose the higher road
But what’s a throne if I die alone?
Cause an ocean away with a reckless name
My true crown came calling at the bay
Don’t speak what wasn't spoken
Don’t look at me like I’m broken
The worst part is: I still love you
I’m sorry

The moon looks like the one
Reigning over in February
Don’t come to London
Don’t scream “Why’d you leave me?”
You’re what I need, my joy, my ultimate fury
But I can’t break the wall
Wish you could still be here with me
Be here with me

I'll keep you closer, closer than most
Closer than friends or lovers or foes
Keep a part of you, you'll never know
The sail will remain as the wind goes.

Wise men once said "Take what you need"
But what if what's needed is out of reach?
In the waters of projection, to reach out, to breathe
Is a trap in itself, you'd need to need me.

My clandestine muse, my spring bloom
Covered by all in eradicant gloom
Your rays of light will still hit the moon
But pulling back from you will be my doom.


I'll keep you far, further than stars
Blurring my vision, chipping my heart
Keep a part of you, watch from afar
Moon dims as Sun beams, worlds apart.

Wise men once said "Choose roads that lead higher"
But now I musn't bear you. Oh, what liars!
Chafing my soul, coaxing my fire
I know that sooner or later you'd tire.

My illicit lust, my timely friend
I'm constantly fighting off, having to fend
All those to whom lust you might lend
But what I need is your love, my merciless end.