sometimes i'll sit all by myself
legs together, tightly pressed
for my mind has wondered once again
and landed on that night
of ******* and bliss

you held me down on the bed
i could feel your weight
and something else
your lips, they captured me by surprise
i felt their pressure against my neck
slowly moving down
they landed on my chest

there was no hesitation
you wandered even lower
that mouth of yours, on my stomach
once, twice and finally
your hands, they grabbed my waist
fingers inched their way
towards my special place

you stopped
and then started all over again.

God gave me family,
God gave me friends,
God gave me life.

But I took something from God---
You.

I took an angel away from the heavens---
A beautiful angel adored by all.

As each day passes the heavens became empty without your presence.

But as each day passes with you beside me,
The more I fall into this endless pit.

You took care of me,
You worshipped me,
You loved me.

The heavens kept searching for you.
I don't want to lose you.
I can't imagine what's it like to be without my everything.

You gave me everything,
And it scares me,
Knowing that one day you'll go back to where you really belong.

It ruined me,
You ruined me,
I ruined me.

I have to give God what rightfully belongs to Him,
Even if it means living without you.