what i long for are those lips,
to take long, slow, and passionate sips.
to caress your rough, worn face.
as you play around with lace,
both our legs intertwine under the covers,
as you and i mold into one another as lovers

I see you happy.
Flowers smile at the sight of a woman and her child.
God is proud of his world, as the angels smile.
I brace my chest and growl the pain away.

I see you eager.
Infecting others with a desire to please.
Breeze, the love you spread fills minds with ease.
I ball up my fists and dig my own nails into my hands.

I see you care.
The smile you give, the hand you extend. I could never repay such kindness again.
Forever I am lost, lost and in love. With a taken woman.
My scowl answers your extended hand.

I see you go.
And I tear every memory of you from my heart, and write it into a poem.

Have you ever been falsely accused ?
              Well ive been
Ive been falsely accused so amused
By my last ex
the last text she sent
Was “all you  ever wanted was ***”
We are human beings thats just
Something that we can expect
See i should of known better
We went through bad times and
Good weather
i should've responded back
To her and  said “never”
i wish i was Betta. but i wasn’t in that right state
Of mind i tried to give all of my Pick up
Lines but they all DIED
So i cried, so i cried   yeah i might’ve lied once
Or twice but maybe what i needed was
A Man to Man advice thats right
Im Kingzachg of HeartBreaks
We just two different couples
Trying to make out of the same  struggle
But its hard for me to juggle
I remember we used to splash on puddles
Blowing out bubbles, staying out of trouble
And cuddle on a day to day basis
Im just trying to keep my homeostasis
But it doesn’t seem  like she can face it
Im not trying to Chase ****
That's real talk  she Falsely accused
Me of being a cheater
I'm No Chris Brown im No woman beater
Im just trying to treat her
Like no other *****
Did
Shout out to all the ******
That did u *****,
may you find a real *****
Who’s actually sturdy.
I dont think you guys get it
I ******* cheated on a girl
I used to call mine
She was all on the phone
With her friends
Throwing all these differents SiGNs
Im drinking so much hennessy
This ***** getting out of line
Im like the rattlesnake
Stone Cold steve Austin  
Cause that's the bottom line.
Im more like Romeo  
Your more like Juliet
Im a montague
Your just  a  freaking capulet
Were just two genders of different ***
Cause That's my intellect
I expected love to be the same
But she left me for another lame
Im not the type of ***** thats good for playing games
Dont you ever forget the name Kingzachg
The Heart Break Kid is comming out in two weeks
Yes indeed, best believe there’s no I in team
Im doing this for my family best believe sheesh!!!!

I
am the crumpled up
rough draft girl
in the wastepaper basket
corner of my mind

she is the file
I deleted
after too many red lines
changed her meaning

this is not my final draft
I will throw myself away
again soon

Hey bro,
Hey,
I’m having a party later wanna come by,
I really shouldn’t,
C’mon it’ll be fun I’ll pick you up at 8.

What do I wear I ask,
I never get invited to parties,
I get ****** drawn on my yearbook,
And I always get picked last for sports.

Hey mom I’m going to a party,
Oh the normal,
Just a study group get together,
My words light as a feather.

The clock strikes 8,
You pick me up,
Right hand on your steering wheel,
Left hand flicking a cigarette out of your window,
The scent of your cologne,
Smells like home,
But the way you look at me,
Home is where I should’ve stayed.

Do you drink,
Like alcohol?

Yes like alcohol,
No not really,
Aw c’mon man you’re coming to your first party,
I really shouldn’t,
Don’t be a *****,
I laugh and shrug,
I knew I should’ve stayed home.


We arrive at your house,
I imagine this is what being famous feels like,
All eyes on you as you step out of the car,
Probably without the empty looks and questions,
Why is he here,
They probably felt bad for him,
Look at him,
Disgusting.

The house was huge,
Owned by a business man,
Rich decor,
Only child,
What a lonely life.

Let me grab you a drink,
No it’s okay I’m really fine,
I bring you to my house and you want to disrespect me?

I guess I’ll have a drink,
That’s my boy,
With a wink and a turn,
You disappear in the crowd.

I sit on your couch in silence,
Bodies swarming by,
Conversations about *** linger in the distance,
I guess everyone knows something about someone,
Even if that person of subject knew nothing about it.

***** this,
***** that,
***** there,
And the best,
I guess **** are allowed here.

You return with the drinks,
Mine fizzy,
Your’s smooth,
Cheers he said,
Clink,
Now drink your drink.

Consciousness came in and out at this point,
My cellphone gone,
I can’t call anyone,
I need my mom.

One moment I’m in the living room,
On the couch,
On the stairs,
In a room,
On a bed.

I can’t speak,
My hands numb,
I’m cold,
My clothes are on the floor.

One pair of hands,
Then two,
Then three,
I lost count after the blindfold,
My screams cut short by loud music and rags.

I wake up,
My head hurts,
Bruises all over my body,
I’m in my bed.


My mother comes in scolding me,
Telling me how he brought me home,
That he told me not to drink so much,
That I fell down the stairs,
This is where the end of my life started,
With a “Hey bro”,
A drink,
A clink,
And a suicide.

My thoughts race
So does the heart,
Happens so often
It feels default.

My fingers fail me,
I cannot type.
My hand shivers,
Can’t hold the pen right.

I feel ants crawling
At the back of my head.
I know there are none
But can’t help be afraid.

I try taking a deep breath,
Always end up in a cough.
Paranoia is ingrained,
It can’t get enough.

oh buddy!
life is rough...
times are tuff!
it all will get better soon?