I felt myself in the universe,
It was like the stars above,
Took me in as their own.
I was at home —
I was undisturbed; free.

As I wandered the celestial,
I was embraced by the void,
And loved by the emptiness.
I was at peace —
I was so careless; blind.

And in the warmth of the vast eons,
I lost myself in their touch;
A lonely, quiet death.
I was solus —
I was so afraid; caged.

Infinity was not forever,
By God, did I know better,
Still, I trusted the calm.
I was naive —
I was so hollow; bare.

Nothing became everything to me,
And who I was disappeared,
Claimed by space and vacuum.
It was perfect —
It was what I wanted.

Because,
I was loved by the emptiness.

And so too, was the emptiness,
Loved by me.

Days of angst
Pursue me through
Awkward moments galore,
The hangover to my prior life.
Middle school bells ring
In the corridors of my mind,
Harkening back to a time
When sharpened pencils were More important than rent.
High school bells bring me
A cold comfort I can't explain,
I guess not enough time
Has passed for me to smile.
If only these tears
Could be wiped from my face
Without the slow hand of time
Quelling my soul's embrace.
Perhaps I'd smile with heart.

gods don't spare whispers
for wretches like me
you never gave hint
of your divinity