how different
we could be
if time
didnt exist

the stars have pretty much aligned
when my manifestations did work,
a year ago, i scribbled your name
nine times across a blank page
sending you vibrations that i still exist;

now, mercury is in retrograde
i’ve stopped asking for signs over the weekend
a year later, more than nine, a hundred times
your name appears on my phone screen,
stalling, i'm just staying still
send me a text and let me know if in my life
you still want to exist.

Ugh, i just hate it here
And this feeling i cant shake
It lingers and it takes
Sometimes I disappear
But even in disappearance
You are unwanted
Not even to yourself
My reflection, so sheer
And transparent
There is nothing left  
Not even organs that want to stay
The invaders settled in my mind
made them stray
My feet heavier
Then the pride they carry
That in justice they make you suffer
That in freedom you are in chains
Never built for the system
To society i am estranged
Made out of mud
Crafted to grow green
But burnt to ashes
When a root began to sprout,
To live is to die
To live is to die

******* twisted reality!

“YOU’RE MAD”
Of course i am
Peace costs peace!

“Go somewhere else now”

With my palms to my chest
I’ll carry the gift life gave me,
The burden of my ancestors
With my pain i’ll carry all of us

Do you understand what it means to live for another and not yours?
You can see it
clearly
That we want
To fly
High
Like no drug can soar
Higher
Then the birds
The clouds
And the stars
To be one
With the unknown

My black body unhinged at the seams
half of me laid out over concrete puddles

My Achilles heel set out on an adventure, which can
lead to my permanent downfall

My shoes are gold mines in retrograde trying to walk to the
rhythm of an out of tune heartbeat

Most black bodies are new born poems, they need a strong
foundation and constant work so the writer can have a leg to stand on

looking at you leaves me petrified
too close for comfort
invigorate me
give me your pain
like you take mine
feel this love
of all this
i now know how it feels to free fall
i just need to learn
learn how to create something worth while out of it
hours in ecstasy
burning against the pavement
just to call you mine
let’s make sure i don’t ruin it with my mind

𝒱𝑒𝓃𝓊𝓈 𝑒𝓃𝓉𝒾𝒸𝑒𝓈 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒷𝒶𝒸𝓀 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝑒.
𝑅𝑒𝓉𝓇𝑜𝑔𝓇𝒶𝒹𝑒: 𝒹𝑜𝓃’𝓉 𝑔𝑜,
𝓅𝓁𝑒𝒶𝓈𝑒 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓎,
𝒶𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒸𝒾𝓇𝒸𝓁𝑒
𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝓀𝒶𝓇𝓂𝒾𝒸 𝒸𝓎𝒸𝓁𝑒,
𝓌𝑒 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓈𝒾𝒹𝑒𝓇 𝓉𝑜 𝒷𝑒 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒.