Beware the addictive properties of our own negative emotions.
Anxiety is a stronger stimulant than a quarter ounce of the highest grade of *******.
Anger as intoxicating as a fifth of precisely aged whiskey.
Sorrow as mind numbing as fourty cc's of premium China White.
Denial masks pain like an eighty miligram oxycontin.
Fear can paralyze like propofol.
Ignorance more dangerous than a speed ball served in a ***** needle at a Hepatitis C support group.

I get up to see a sky so bright
not the sun or its serene blue
from the horizon to the zenith
filled up by numerous kites

vibrant, shades of all colors,
some soaring high, some calm and still
all shapes and sizes flying with vigor
breathing the purity, going as per their will

Though so bright, they don't cast a reflection
spreading happiness in peace, they do not preach
while I just gaze in sheer amazement
is everything up above, out of my reach ?

With the string attached, it gets pulled back
its actions controlled by this invisible imagination
I want to cut the string and set the bird free,
and wonder, will that dim the sky's illumination ?

If I could see only dishonesty and corruption
I wish I was blind
If i could hear only evil
I wish I was deaf
If I could speak only stupidity
and nonsense
I wish I was dumb
If I couldnt use my hands
to help others
I wish I was a torso
If I could be cruel and selfish
I wish I was dead
Because, there is no use
to be alive
When we are not able to
show any resposibility to
the world!
----de3pak

I’m not Careless
(But I’m not Careful).
I’m not Reckless
(But I’m not Mindful).

Why can’t Helpless and Careless conceive,
and why can only Reckless and Blameful breed?
Why is it that I swaddle Responsibility, the daughter of Action?
Why is it that I nurse Responsibility, the sister of Reaction?
For how many nights must I be disturbed by Responsibility’s cries?
She is your child, not mine
(But at the market, they all mistake me for the mother).
And somewhere you sleep soundly -
While here I weep silently,
failing to calm the screams of a weary infant hovering over my heart.

Would you say I’m less than because
I refuse to be Shameful?
Would you say you’re Regretful
or just Remorseless?
Will you father Responsibility,
or will I tuck her in every night?

I can’t answer for you
(But I’m not Voiceless):
None of this makes me less than a woman,
I can say what I’m not
(But I know what I am):
Powerful.

-bes-

With tireless dedication

it reminds me, ticking patiently

that was a past occasion ,

what will be , is a future liability.

Resting in peace, here are those
Who have got, no self to loose
A silent aura, enshrouding this cemetery
Retires them, from life' s *****

What is it, that they want to tell us
Are they really left, or present among us
Whatever they will be doing, in their afterlife
Surely they shed their divine blessings, upon us

A layman writes this rhyme, while having a gaze at it
His heart will always be lit, by a light
Of respect, which everyone should follow, for their sakes too
As this is the ending, of every individual bit


|AB|

My heart pounds inside my chest and I can feel my anxiety increasing
I've never been anxious
My two bestfriends are drowning and I don’t know how to swim
Which do I save?
Can I go in after both?
But I can't tread water or even doggy paddle
Wait…I actually have a slight fear of water
But I have to go, I have to try
I can feel the water creeping up my legs
I keep walking steadily, careful not to lose my footing
Got **** it's cold, they must be freezing
I walk faster now, in waste deep
I keep hearing my name in silent cries
They are pleading for me to hurry with their worried eyes
**** where'd she go?
I can’t see her head
I can see his hand
I try to yell "I’m here, I’m here!! I’m coming"
but a tidal wave comes and takes me under
 
I remember she said being around me makes her fearful
Her fears of me made me remember why
I’m flooded with thoughts of my past
Images that can’t be erased no matter how much I’ve changed
No matter how much time has passed
I can’t let myself drown, she needs me
 
Noo! I'm here I can save you this time
I can rescue you, hold you
And your fears of me will be no more
I will be your hero and not your destroyer
 
I resurface and try swimming towards her
But just as my head peeps above the water
A thick cloud of smoke blurs my vision
**** **** ****! I can’t see!
I realize he's trying to get my attention
“Come my way” he's pleading
It looks like he's relaxing on the water
Floating
But it's all a show, I know
He's a sinker
 
That used to be our past time
chilling, relaxing, smoking
But now he is choking on his hobby
**** did I let this happen?
The ominous smoke cloud is hovering above him
spreading in the wind
I know he can’t breathe…
 
I’m overwhelmed and want to yell “Help!”
But nah, I got this
They can't know I'm **** near drowning too
They can’t see the tears running down my face
Thank goodness we are in water
Wait ****...we're in water
Don't panic
Relax.
Breathe.
 
The faster I move, the further into the abyss I go
The harder it is for me to see them
I can no longer hear their cries or see their bodies
 
****. The sun's going down
It’s slowly starting to set.
I have to get to them before night fall
Don't give up.
Don’t
Give
Up.
They're counting on you
 
I turn back...
 
As soon as I reach land I drag my body across the dirt
Ahh yes! Over there!
I get my life boat and return to the water more at ease.
I can do this.
My confidence is back.
I close my eyes and feel their heartbeats traveling through the air
It's like a magnet.
 
Times running out but I will save them
 
Paddle
Faster.
Paddle
Faster!
Tick
Tock
Tick
Tock
 
I don't know if I can reach them before the darkness surrounds them
All I know is I will reach them and pull them aboard
Even if it's dark, at least we will see the light
*Together.

He's my Fleur de lis.
My hot fantasy.
In charge.
On large responsibility.
To me. For me. By Me.
Into me.
His mouth His Body. H. I. S.
Not his turn. His Property; I
Tap it. Turn it. Wake me up.
******. Romantic. Redemantic.