Misguided fire of passion
Burns one’s own abode
Even the tears of remorse
Can’t douse the raging inferno

I wish i could say that you are the only thought
in my mind
before
i sleep.

But your kisses are momentary
and your words mean nothing.

I wish he knew his eyes sting me and his words
in my mind
before
i sleep.

But his kisses are hers
and his words mean everything.

There is a dark empty hole of dirt where you died
I see it and I feel only a black pit of despair
No tears, sadly enough
I swear I've used them all too much
I need a friend, yet I abandoned you
Why should I have any friend at all?

There's no harder thing to say than I'm sorry
I can't believe you're gone out of the blue
It's a sad tragic life of mine filled with pain
Nothing feels worse than losing everyone I love
And being left with my internal misery.

I wonder how much long longer
It will take before I'm
Where you are.

Undress the soul, pure;
Caress the senses, chaste;
Wash the eyes off the haze.
Sleep and rest to unwind;
Cleanse the heart, empty;
Look into the mirrors gaze.

Webs of remorse, found;
Oceans of screams, bound;
Try again! the sweet one.
Feel blessed, God's own child;
Meet again, the divine soul;
Chaos synchronized, plays aloud.

Split the dream, open;
Bolt the thoughts, shut;
Live the moments, unsought.
Embrace the revelation, tight;
Play the chords of your soul;
Quench oneself off the drought.

Drink the misery, complete;
Butcher the pain, obsolete;
Embellish the good for once.
Solve the mystery unsought;
Lifeless remains and ashes;
Deserve not a single glance.

Lost all that there was,
No courage to build new.
Sweet Remorse!
Shadows cast do follow,
Guided by a source.
Fades away!

Being insane a cancer,
Sorrows feed on blissful memories,
Chokes the respect for life,
Death deceives laughter,
I am a doomed ******.

Sorrows imperishable bind the soul,
Graveness Despair rules my world,
Tearing Blades of animosity,
bleeds me to death,
I am a doomed ******.

Scary unholiness destructs all wisdom,
Melancholy songs strangle all smiles,
A streak of lightening burns the mast,
A single thought unsettles the mind,
I am a doomed ******.

Silence has become the sweetest melody
I hear things I cannot reproduce
Songs with too much meaning to convey
Silence is not golden
It's raw
Raw like my feet in high heels
Raw like your words
Raw like a crack of thunder
Raw like a cry of remorse
Raw
Raw
Raw
I cannot breathe

9/20/13