to my future lover,
to my future boy,
to my future love of my life and the like.

we haven't met yet,
and i'm not sure if we will,
but i'm willing to ask you a few questions of mine.

promise you'll be gentle?
promise you'll be kind?
promise you'll be loyal, mine and only mine?

i hope it's not too much,
i hope i'm not too much,
i hope you're okay with those requirements of mine,
i hope you're okay with holding me in your arms,
to drown,
to melt,
to snuggle in every inch of them.

please be gentle,
please be honest,
please be kind,
please be mine.

always, with undying love,
yours, sammy.

Half of me and half of you, a point of divergence for you
Half of me and half of you, a point of amalgamation to me
Half of me and half of you, a false pretence to you
Half of me and half of you, a make-believe fairytale to me
Half of me and half of you, a hefty disdain to you
Half of me and half of you, a wishful radiance to me
Half of me and half of you, a lousy freebee to you
Half of me and half of you, a subtle rush to me
Half of me and half of you, a blatant lie for you
Half of me and half of you, a beautiful lie to me
                                                                         -Asher Graves

When you go
you take a piece of me,
and yet I am complete
more replete than I have ever been,
a fuller person than the one you would have known or seen,
I am myself, at last,
no longer victim to our complicated past,
and as we part of course there will be sorrow
for you it ends
for me I will step forward to tomorrow

Greatly, do I value your friendship
It is a beautiful relationship
You were a very supportive teammate
Ironically though, it was after we fought
That our friendship really began
But of course, you are a gem of a person
Jesus would be proud of you
Because, so true and sincere are you!

Greatly, do I value your friendship
As well as your husband's friendship
Vivek is a really sweet guy
Always, does he keep you happy
And your children are true diamonds
Surely, does the entire family embody happiness and peace!!

Greatly, do I value your friendship
In our communication, seldom is there a gap
Because, you are **** brutally honest
Though of course, at times you can be extremely sweet
That's what makes you such a brilliant wife and mother
Like you, can there be no other!!

Greatly, do I value your friendship
Never will there be an end, to this relationship
Our bond should grow stronger over time
To Chennai, hopefully soon will I come
Take care and keep that lovely smile on your face
May you be blessed with loads of love, success, happiness and peace!!

It broke me in silence
To know he wasn’t aware
To pretend and lie to me
That I wasn’t truly loved
That he used me
That everything I felt was true
I was gaslit
I was duty
It was conditional
It was all a performance
He gave me crumbs to keeps me hoping
Words became empty
Because the actions weren’t there

Awakening to the reality
Of what was really happening
Broke me
And still I hoped he would change
I thought his patience meant he cared
It was to keep me quiet as he did what he wanted
He said why can’t I accept him as he is
I said I can’t betray myself anymore

In the quiet between heartbeats, I found you there,
Not in grand gestures, but in a most gentle care.
In every moment your eyes softly see,
The deepest, truest parts of me.

You understand when words fall short,
When silence speaks more than love ever thought.
With devotion, you stand by my side,
A lighthouse constant through the tide.

You offer respect like a sacred prayer,
In every look, in how you’re always there.
You validate the dreams I dare to voice,
And reassure me, love is not a choice.
It’s how you show up, again and again,
In sunlight and sorrow, through joy and pain.

And I, in turn, trust your soul’s design,
Accepting your shadows as wholly divine.
I see your strength, and I admire,
The way you rise from every fire.

Your worth, your heart, I deeply approve,
With every breath, I show my love.
And when your courage starts to fade,
I’ll be your echo - unafraid.

Appreciation fills my every vow,
To cherish the person standing here now.
Encouragement will be my gift,
A steady wind, a soul’s uplift.

So let this be the promise I keep,
To love you wide, to love you deep.
Where caring meets trust, and devotion meets grace,
That’s where our love has found its place.

Deep purples and blues
Ligature grooves
Yellows and blacks
The acts of whiplash

They line my back
With that "thwack"
Snap, attack. Sit back
Attach the belts
After they lash...

Deep beneath sheers
Our secrets sear
Sizzling acts
Incriminating collapse

While knees weaken
At lunch, speakin'
Barely a whisper
In memories breathin'
Throat constrictions
Leading to these light lesions
Cold trickles seeping
Beneath the fabric sheeting
My heart beating, my spirit leaving
I'm eating with my friends
But not one of them believe me
When they ask me, why im seemingly
A million miles away, I say "no reason"
But they see it, that I'm speechless
Off with the fairies, freely.
Floating realms, that sweep me
Off my feet, sequestered sins repeatin'

How each murmer escaped lips,
the turn of the flick of your wrist
I'm lost in the THICK of it.

So I excuse my pardon, sit at the park and, grin.
Longing for a memory remedy...
The air heavy, the reverie a burner
Gripped hair, moans, ******
Skin seduced in scorching secrets
Begging your touch to soothe, tease it
Free it, from the torture
Pleasure and pain, icy sorcerer
Witch my mind, till I'm putty
Moldable, obedient, your lil puppy

Then **** me, make love to me
Soothe me, be my drug hit
An addict for the euphoria
The withdrawal, phantasmagoria

Delusional delectable highs
Painful sighs, engulfed eyes
To heaven, hell and paradise
There and back, in one night

Under the watchful sights
Of moonlight, while you prise thighs
Take me to the ethereal side
As my soul leaves my life

Astral travels by your side
To be your pride and joy
Then divide, Conquer, destroy
In your delightful wicked ploy

To make me need another HIT
Savour every command, every inch
you're all through my veins now
Without you, I break down

Invade me, physically, mentally
Emotionally. Empty me of energy
Then moan with me, or own me
While I Invoke your spirit to go deep

Into the darkest recesses of my core
Corrupt me more, take me as yours
I can't focus anymore, only on your claws.
No remorse, no remedy. I'm here
To stay the course
Divorce the logical recourse.
As the Raven swore, a crow cawled
The line and declared Evermore
Chambering on my chastity door
Thats been locked up, waiting for
Someone worthy to absorb
Let's slowly smoke eachothers souls
Through these straws.
As i score my name in.  Adorn
And pour my poetry through your pores

Tonight, I'll be at yours, once more
Your personal *****. Your canvas
Then I'm going to paint you in our elixir
Create brushwork genius in bodies scripture
Signs of signatures. So my essence ever lingers
Like yours burns under your wick-end fingers

After all the **** you put me through                                                          ­                                
                                                                ­                                        
   Claiming all along it's been me not you              
                                                                ­                                    
  You made me feel you were doing me a favor                                                            ­                                        
                                                                ­                                              
  While I gave you all my best behavior                                                                   ­                                
Still, you say I am not good enough                                                                      ­                                                    
   I tell you that I am sorry that my love                                                                   ­                                                
Was something you wanted more of          
                                                                                 
  When I wasn't sure you loved me at all                                                                      ­                                             
    You pushed me away & put up walls                                                                     ­                                                      
  So here we are now, there is no mistaking                                                        ­                                   
                             ­                                                                 ­           
  Loving you was a huge undertaking

Now I understand how relationships oftentimes made me stop progressing and growing. I tried to stay the same deliberately because I was afraid they would stop loving me if I changed.