i don't wanna be your friend
for I wanna hold your hand
as genuine as i intend
as long as i planned

i don't wanna be your friend
and stay on that lane
where we both would mend
the gore and the pain

i don't wanna be your friend
but i can't say it
for it's hard to comprehend
as i still can't admit

i don't wanna be your friend
i don't wanna see that smile
as something just for the end
i'll wait even if it takes a while

i don't wanna be your friend
i wanna be something more
now, i can't pretend
you are what i wish for

but if you ask me why
why friendship isn't enough
i'm just gonna lie
maybe tell the truth or half

you're a mystery and we both know it
I am as well but I'll never submit
we both question our very existence
for that, I say good riddance

in actuality, I do not want to bother
but the curiosity makes me think harder
are you feeling the same way as I am?
maybe not, maybe you're just like them

so I try to tell myself perhaps it's just overwhelming
the crippling feeling of mystery is seething
though it's not my first time to encounter this,
at the end, will I still take the risk?

random thoughts bouncing
inside my skull i'm writing
what they tell me to

Once in a while like a goddess from Greece,
But all in the blink of an eye it seems,
Wonder but is all I could do in a day,
Its nothing but the waves in my mind, it seems.

Surrenders the winds in the light of your heart,
Imagine, a world that is ever between,
These two extremes on which we're built upon,
The night shall never end, if you go on like this

I plead with you, to the one that could do,
Whatever he pleases, whatever he desires,
What shall I do that will bring you to life?
You walk in the dust, and I see you disappear.

Love, they say is the greatest of us
But none of them see or feel how it hurts
An illusion that is real enough to make one cry
How fake is it really, tell me dear, do you see?

Its a lonely night but the goddess that's you,
Awaken the beast, in my mind, with a kiss
Tender is the touch of your lips, oh I feel
Its nothing but the waves in my mind, it seems.

Him.
My Savior.
The light of my life.
It was him who saved me from myself.
Dragged me out of the currents.
Divined me from my demons.
Him.
My Enemy.
The reason I'm still here.
It was him who kept me here.
He destroyed me.
Crushed my freedom and soul.
Made me want him more.
Played with me like I couldn't feel.
Him.
My Love.
My Hate.
My Angel
My Demon.
Mine.

And I am stevia
Together
We’re a snacc.




Because if my heart ever sought for one taste
It’d be your love.



Interesting, I’ve never tasted peanut buttered fish before.

But I’d like to taste you more.

Rusted, desolated, broken dreams.
Torn down, built up, sold as new.
Forgotten memories, stolen ideas,
That is where I hail from.

Sky blue eyes curving simplicity,
I reign from the ashes of the hollow.
Black, blue, yellow, and green
the fruits show peace beyond negativity.

Sitting on an open porch,
Smiling like no other,
listening to the tales of the tales,
that come from my father.

Apricot trees, Fixated houses;
down the street is torn up and beat,
where my friends lived vouches,
is where I would come up to meet.

Current animations hold a shotgun,
shooting at the first sight seen at the end of the street,
sadly is where my life belongs;
And where my dreams rely.
My life flashes before my eyes
As my two childhoods collide.